broken into pieces..

dat is how i felt d nite b4..i was crashed n burned..my heart torn..i juz dunnoe wat 2 say..it did quite crushed me..devastated wif wat happened and i felt so damn stupid..i do still think dat m stupid coz giving myself d chance..owh..how am i so blind?? how can i not realise?? owh..bitter heart of mine..

but now..d pain starts to fade..giving me a space to breathe n think things wisely..tho i hv to face it each n every day without backing down..i guess d pain will come n haunt me..but..i'll try..try to look good..try to be normal..but..no fuss..i got my family..i got my fwenz..i suppose, they can be d reason for me to move on wif my life..besides, there is a lot of things i shud think of..assgmnts, presntations n bla3..n it's almost fasting month..better 2 think bout wat to eat or to prepare for the holy month..better than to be emo..hahaa..

no..its not one's fault..i do, too, one of d reasons for all these..no3..i’m d main reason..it's a mess..i made tis mess..m d one who created it..m too carried away..obviously..wat I’ve done, my feelings and reactions are definitely noticeable..i guess surroundgs made me do all tis..i am not lyk tis..as far as i remember..but acting cool wud be great rite now..this is not d 1st time..i used to think it's a curse..haha..but it was so long ago..rite now..i think it's juz a stupid mistake..mistake dat has been made by not juz me, but most of d ppl out there..aint it true?

i guess i think too much..i try play it too safe by avoiding it..but sumhow..i played d game..my own game..n i've lost..lost d battle in my own game..haha..y is tis happen 2 me?? tried to avoid but..as a human..i cant stop it..not at all i pray for it 2 be end happily..nor disaster-ly.. it juz happened..n keeps happening..no, I don’t think its unfair..but more on how we look at it..i take it as a lesson..a lesson to learn..assumptions, judgements shud be kept until it touches the finishing line..

a fren of mine asked..y do i hv to keep tis up?? it can only bring heart ache..but stil i play wit it..i guess..m playing wif fire..myb m trying to fool myslf again..but for me, i juz..want it to be..normal..ppl can definitely see if we changed..i dont want it to be like dat..i juz..wanna be me..n normal..as long as i can go wif it..i will..i noe ppl wont lyk it..but..i guess..things shud be remained but it depends on how we deal wif it..how we face it..n definitely, I can’t run nor I can walk away..facing it wud be difficult but..yeah..wth..it’s life..running away will take u nowhere but back at it..besides, facing ur problem will test ur maturity on handling it..i guess face it lyk its nothing will be great..

tis isn’t a serious matter..but..yeah..i got 2 b strong..to face things..every day..looking at it as a simple mistake..and it wont affect me..myb there is a silver lining..but thank God..coz He showed me before I fall deeper..go a lil further..Alhamdulillah..Allah saved me..i guess dats d silver lining..so dat..i wont lose my stand..principles of mine shall be preserved..yeah..

all I nid is that ppl n my bantal busoks 2 understand..there is only ijao here..so nevmind..i’ll share this prob wif my other bntal busoks at home tis weekend..wic means..m goin back..so..so long..owh..bitter heart of mine..

fin..i rest my case..

p/s: im not okay, I promise..hahahah…I HOPE YOU'LL UNDERSTAND..

alesana gay??

ok..tros trang..sok ak ad paper contract law 1..tp..mseh lg..ak t-blog..gtu..hahaha..mke..tbe2..bek nye dok stadi plus surfing d net..ak tbe2..trigt isu..yg org kt alesana adlh band gay..ak dh la mnat alesana..almost all d albums ak dh pon dl..klo kt gay pon..ak xtau la..ak xkesah mgkn..tp btol ke mreke gay??

org ptame yg mlafazkan kt2 bhw alesana adlh gay adlh c aiman 2..esyhhh...ak dok la deny..pstu..d stujui oleh cda plak..ak pon nek xphm dh..hahaha..bpakat mgkn mereke..mke..dgn xsmene2 nye..ak pon google la..tol ke gay kan..kot2..hnye la rumours gtu..i hate rumours..(bunyik die ala2 "i lyk mat rempit" a.k.a zulhuzaimy nye cre ckp..gtu) hahaha..

mke rmai gak mnanyekan soalan yg sme..ad yg kt..specific nye adlh shawn..tp ad kt shawn dh pon engaged..ntah..ak pon x tau..klo gay skali pon..ak nk dgr lgu die..bkn org die..klo dpt jmpe, mmg heaven la!!! kompom nges kat ctu gak..but..mlg nye..nie adlh msia..n msian govt xkan mbnrkan la..band2 gni dtg msia..mcr 2 pon kre btapis..hehehe..yg nie..ak xrse..hahaha..

mke..konklusi nye..lntk..ak mseh rse kan..shane crump of alesana is hott...kiut deyhh beliaw..mmpo growl jge..oh ye!! growl..xpe..post nt..hahaha..

fin..daaa ppl...

p/s: ader ak kesah?? hahahahahahaah

masih cinta..

ak mmg dh lme dh cri lgu nie..tp xpnah dpt tau pon tjok n pnyanyi die..lai2..tbe2..las week mama kt.."download lgu kump kotak!!!" n ak spt "spe kah?? band pe 2? lgu pe??" mama pon kt "bes lgu die..tiap2 ari kuar radio..tjok mama x igt plek..dl je!!! bes!! dl tau!! dgr lgu 2..pompuan nyanyi..sdap suare die.." ak pon ok kan je la..tbe2..2 ari lpas..ak pon tringat..mke ak dl..

result nye adlh..YAY!! LGU YG AK CRI DH DPT!! tp..ble dh dgr..ak jd se-mellow lgu nie..2 3 mnjak nie..ak pon mellow..bkn 2 3 mnjak..slame nie pon..hahah..ikot plak lgu nie..lg la..xtau la kes mkn dlm ke pe ke..tp..mellow..pastu ak slhkan mama..!! tp ak xckp la kat mama..ahaha..ida pon punya la pujok ak kat ym..yg len trut heran ngan ak..heshhh..ntah laa..

tp ad kala..lirik die cm..mkn dlm gak..haha..ntah la..alaa..refleksi mgkn..biarla..tp..ye..lgu nie sgt bes..lirik die pon sng gle bab..ulg2 je..n stau ak band nye indon..owhh..lupe..nme band ni adlh KOTAK..lgu nye tjok MASIH CINTA..tjok pon dh mkn dlm..hahaha..xpe..ak xde pape pon..kbtolan je..kpd rkn2 skalian..ak bkn mellow kerne pape ye..nie juz xtentu psl je..insyaallah..

Tik tik tik waktu berdetik
Tak mungkin bisa kuhentikan
Maumu jadi mauku
Pahit pun itu ku tersenyum

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu

Tik tik tik air mataku
Biar terjatuh dalam hati
Mauku tak penting lagi
Biar kubuat bahagiamu

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu
Kamu tak bisa bayangkan rasanya
Jadi diriku yang masih cinta

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Saat berhadapan kamu
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Jadi diriku yang masih cinta

p/s: enjoy..***sigh***

taylor swift - you belong with me...

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me 

p/s: this song is cute..heheh..ummm..

emarosa

this band nme nye emarosa..genre yg dmenkan adlh spt post hardcore, hardcore n adek bradek ngan nye..ak mnat band nie coz vocalist die (white tshirt)..nme die Johny Craig..he has a very great voice..very unique..he can make it kasar or lembot..can lenggok also..but x cak leng pong laa..hahaha..btw, he is d new vocalist 4 tis band..last time die dlm Dance Gavin Dance..die jge sdg bt solo..but i lyk his voice..talented..x jerit2 sgt laaa..hehehe

ak dgr band nie mule2 dgn lgu JUST ANOTHER MARIONETTE..skunk nie tgh dgr lgu THE PAST SHOULD STAY DEAD..bes..i've even downloaded d album called RELATIVITY..released last year..so bru lg la..bes woohhh...hehehe..kompom abg xkan ske la..ak rse..hahaha...

JUST ANOTHER MARIONETTE

The fear sets in, of knowing how short our time is
The shortness of stride, not a single excuse to prove that we were meant for this

Everything starts to spin all at once

If you hear something strange in my voice oh it's conviction
Detest my words they have no I'll meaning

Run your fingers back and forth over this sheet of paper

So where's the heart? 
It's not coming through
Who is this for? 
So where's the heart? 

If you hear something strange in my voice oh it's conviction
Detest my words they have no I'll meaning

Were caught between the storms that never mattered

Oh dear puppet wake up and cut the strings before the next show
I believe that this is in your blood, by all means take your place, take your place

Put yourself into this letter
We've all had it alright
We dropped the ball.

THE PAST SHOULD STAY DEAD

Tailored sheets, to fix this dirty bed, 
For once this dirt won't come all off
It can't be pushed aside.

Wind is blowing thru closed doors
With shadows dancing in the hall
Now hit the floor, crawl to the side, 
We've all made better moves despite the slowing of our feet

For once
Lets leave the dreaming to someone else, 
Our time has slipped away, 
We're sinking faster, faster no more play
Get ready for the catch, 
I'm at the next step, waiting for our year

And all at once it leaves you breathless, 
With next to nothing, but open hands.

Reach out, hold on tight, 
I know it hurts but keep trying, 
And with your luck, 
This won't be over quick
Out of the blue it strikes you
What's left to catch but the fear of letting go?

And bite down, 
The stress get harder now, 
The mood is let down, 
Let it play for the last time, 
Take this last second to know who's walking out.

For once don't be so weak, 
Back up the feelings that you claim now, 
Fall deeper into a world, that you can't explain.

For once don't be so weak, 
I see the mistake that is you, 
Don't try another line, I know the truth

And let hate save you when nothing else will, 
Oh, well let it save you when nothing else will.

Let it save you.

The mood is let down, 
Let it play for the last time, 
Take this last second to know who's walking out

We know who does it best, 
Wind is blowing thru closed doors
With shadows dancing in the hall
Now hit the floor, crawl to the side, 
We've all made better moves despite the slowing of our feet

Let hate save you when nothing else will.

I know the truth, it won't save you.

fin sudeyhhh...

p/s: lyrics - lyricsmode n pic - flickr

CINTA SEJATI??

ble dh dgr ttg seseorg 2..tbe2..tringt lgu cinta sejati..u noe, u shud find tis kind of luv..real..sejati..mncinta sesorg tnpe mminta n menerima..tp lebeyh pd mberi..pastu..btol2 jujor dlm relationship 2..dat will make more..umm..meaningful..but..nyways..Allah yg bt prsn nie..Tuhan yg tntukan sgle nye..mke..mnusia 2 sme de leh handle atao x..pe yg Tuhan dh guideline kan..including prsn..so pape je la..ni lirik nye..hope u enjoy..

Cinta sejati yang bisa
Memberi tanpa harus menerima
Dia membawa damai dan bahagiakan jiwa
Tuk semua manusia

Hanya cinta sejati yang bisa
Bertahan tanpa mengenal waktu
Takkan pernah sirna bagai
Karang di samudera
Kan abadi tuk selamanya

Reff :
Seperti itulah cintaku untuk dirimu
Tulus dan apa adanya
Datang dari sebuah rasa sucinya hati
Atas nama cinta sejati

Dan bila engkau telah mengerti
Berapa besar artinya cinta hingga

(*)
Setiap nafas yang mengalir di tubuhmu
Mengandung cinta dari yang Kuasa

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make..ko interpret la sndrik lgu nie..mls ak nk lyn..interpretasi stp manusia kan len..haha..mke..pape je la..hahaha..

p/s: sumpah..ak ok..ak sehat..ak xde pape..jgn riso psl ak..hahahah...

tentang seseorang..

m in d mood for indonesian music..stlah lme dok dgr screamo n adek bradek dgn nye..mke..thx 2 aiman yg tbe2 dok ckp pasl AADC n lgu ku bahagia, mke ak pon dgr la blik lgu2 indon..lme dh ak tgl kan lgu2 2 sume..mke..kni..ak kmbli..heheh..1 of my old time fav song is TENTANG SESEORANG..wic happens 2 b in AADC..mke..lyn la lgu nie..pnat gak ak nk scroll n mcri lgu nie dlm file malay n indon ak 2..thx abg..kerne sdkah kan kat adik!! hahaha..bek bliaw..hahah..mke..nie la lirik nye..

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merangkai semua tanya
imaji yang terlintas
berjalan pada satu
tanya slalu menggangguku
seseorang itukah dirimu kasih

kepada yang tercinta
inginnya ku mengeluh
semua resah di diri
mencari jawab pasti

akankah seseorang yang kuimpikan kan hadir
raut halus menyelimuti jantungku

cinta hanyalah cinta
hidup dan mati untukmu
mungkinkah semua tanya
kau yang jawab

dan tentang seseorang
itu pula dirimu
ku bersumpah akan mencinta

mke..lirik nie xde kaitan pon dgn life ak..insyallah..bt mse nie..kot..hahaha...ak n abg mmg ske gle lgu nie..sgt2..tbe2 ble dgr blik..ak dok repeat lgu nie je..x2kar lgu len dh pon..hahah..

so..hayatila lgu nie..wah..klo ad org men kan lgu nie tok ak..sumpah nges..hahahah..ye ke?? hahaha..wateva..enjoy..

p/s: again..life ak xde kaitan dgn lgu nie..bt mse nie..hahahah..