buzzes of the busy bee..

hello..urmm..skunk nie ak brade d sem pendek..make..scre konklusinye..ak akn bz gler..mke..xkan smpt nk bt postings..unless..mslh mlande la..hahah..but yeah..ak bz la..ngn sgle esemen yg blom pon ak start pstu nk midterm n final lg..mke..maap la..wahai blog..ko akn brabok jap..for few weeks..tgk pd keadaan..but ill be back..juz w8..ull c..hahahaha..gle la..bunyik cm pe je..

n btw..alang2 nie..nk ckp gak..ak 2 3 mnjak nie..cm org gle..hyper..happy je..ak cm xtkot ngn org..ak men ckp je pe ak nk ckp..bt je pe ak nk bt..n m so kind..seyesly..bkn nk bgge dri ke pe..ak cm..smgt nk mbntu..n jd bek..tp..mlot mseh lancg..ak rse..maap la kpd spe2 yg trse..dgn kt2 ak..ak ckp pon bkn sj2, tp, btol2 mean it..2 klo mnde seyes la..klo mende 2 men2, ak mmg men2 la...n ak cm..rse dri ak plik..pehal ntah..ak cm wateva la..smpai tkunyah lalat pon ak xde pape..wlopon pd mule ak spt jrit 'fuck!' tp lps 2 ak cm..lnx la..sdap gak..hahaha..x3..its disgusting..but cm xkesah je..hahaha..xpe la..alhamdulillah..mgkn Allah brikan ak ketenangan kot..slen dr kne cash atas mulot ak yg jht nie kan?? hahaah..mke..smntare xde mslh nie bek ak bsyukor dlu..nt time ad mslh, nt x kng budi plak..hahahaha..

2 1..pstu..dlm kol 7-8 am ak akn tjge scre tbe2..pstu..lyn je la ym yg spe2 tglkan swktu ak tdo..dh lyn2, smbg2..ak smbong tdo blik..dlm kol 10 cm 2..psti ad msj dri ida..tny nk mkn sme x..hahaha..it happens everyday..ak cm..dh tbiase dh..kdg2 ak spt ternanti2..hahahah..burok tol..die cm dh tbese..so..lnx la..hahaha..dh bgon, smbel mamai2 leh ym ngn mmbr pstu tdo blik..?? hebat la..hahaah..ak rse cm hebat gle..hahaahah..mslh nye x mamai pon time type 2..xsgt la..hahahah..

pasnie x tau la pe nk jd plak..hahaha..dh bnyk dh jd..tp..xpe la..biar Allah, ak n org yg tau je yg tau pe yg dh blaku..yg akn blaku, Allah je yg tau..nmpknye kne sedia la..hahahaah..mnx2 yg elok la..dh pnat la emotion yg negative2 nie..hahahaah..mseh ak doakan yg insyaAllah sume akn lbeyh nt utk bkn shj ak, malah sume org..amin..insyaAllah..weee~~ ak rse ak dh mengong..hahaaha

fin..huaaarrrggghhh~~(nguap)

p/s:

• sok pg clz shariah tuto kol 10 pg..n skunk nie kol 3pg..ak mseh x tdo..ak nie dh la ssah nk bgon..hahaha..mampos ak!
• mengimpikan sebuah ford mustang yang lama berwarna merah dan hitam serta sebuah LOMO..yg 2nd nie, klo ad rejeki, insyaAllah..yg 1st, saket laa..hahaha

mother's instinct..

dlm kol 11 pm td received phone call from mama..as usual la..so td smbg2..mama tny kat mne..ckp la kat bwh..luar..nk lpak jap..ye la..nk blik sok..so..mama tny hows bf? n i said wat? mne de..xde bf pon..well mmg xde pon..hahah..mama ske assume mmt complicated 2 balak ak..well ak ckp la mmt 2 ad mnah len..nguh try nk dpt kan mnah 2..n ak nie pbakar smgt die..then ak tgh mama cm x dat cerie..abh pon lbeyh kurg..adkh diorg tau yg ak juge heartbroken? well parents esp moms mmg ad instinct ttg ank die..n so..i guess mama mgkn dpt rse ak heartbroken kot..hahaha..she seems 2 be giving me sum advice..lyk..dat guy is blind..sumday he'll come 4 u..juz let it be..if he lyks u, he'll confess..biar die yg thegeh2 kat kte, jgn kte thegeh2 kat die..nevamind..he is juz confused..he cant c d truth yet..n bla3 lg..ak cm..wonder..how..y..wat..cm 2..cmne mama cm leh tau..ak dun even tell her dat i lyk tis guy or anythg..i juz told her we're frens..dats all..ak mmg slame nie pon stress kan bhw kmi hny la kwn..but sumhow..mama lak cm get excited..ntah..hahahaah..well..td..ak n farah g jogging..utk tenangkan ati..kmi luahkan prsn msing2..bg pdpt..cube bntu ssme sndrik..ktorg pon try 2 figure out gak wats d prob..how 2 solve..n bla3..mama call lpas 2..so myb mama ad instinct kot...ntah..ak pon xtau..hahaha..tp..sok..i hv 2 b happy..coz ak nk blik..so nt, tkot la mama, abh even abg tgk ak sdeyh2..ak xmo la cm 2..xbes..hahaha..ala..xpe la..prob ngn mamat nie cume sekudis je..bkn pe pon..xbsr pon..tp..2 la..karma..1 day he'll come back..but..i dunnoe wat will happen next..papela..hahahaha..

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p/s: klo idop ak cm cte sembilu, abes mamat 2 kne kjar ngan abg ak..mau abg blsh die idop2..mau x nye..die (abg) je leh bt ak sket ati..org len xleh..hahaha..ak rse la..

wrong again..

well..assuming wont take u anywhere..u'll be stuck there until d real truth comes to u..mke dgn itu..yg post bru2 nie 2, d complicated guy is out of d list..but he is still complicated..ak yg anggap laen..sume org anggap bnde yg sme spt ak..org2 nie sume mgkn yg influence ak 2 bfikiran bgtu..mlgnye..x..its wrong..tp bkn slh spe2..nme pon 'agk nye', 'myb', 'rsenye'..so xpe la..ak rse ak pon slalo slh interpret..so it makes d tjok la..wrong again..but fair enuff 4 me dat i am still his fren..i dun 1 more..so kre ok la..so long dat he noes dat ak nie leh jd a multipurpose fren for him pon ckop la..well..ak pnah jd tmpt ngadu, sedeyh, suke, happy, sume la utk die..so..ak rse xpe la..xhal la..ak tau bnde nie wont go far..dh lme ak nmpk..tp ak je dok konon2 bfikiran jauh..xde la jauh sgt..skunk nie..klo ak lari tros pon xleh gak coz ak dh pon bkwn ngan die..i chose tis path..it will be worse if ak ttbe lenyap lak kan..but yeah..2 la ak..bek sgt..xpela..ak pon dh kt ak akn jd motivator die..i'll push him, back him up, lite up his spirit when he is in nid of it..n i suppose he is glad gak coz ad mmbr cm ak..hahaha..well..ak yg akn troskan jln cte nie, so ak kne take risk, be fine to all matters n len2 lg..tp side effect die la..tkot org len yg tkene..so sorry gle la..korg..tkot korg trse ke pe ke...but..juz slap me if u c dat im x myself..hahah..come to think of it, nie la reality nye..hahah..gud thing is dat ak xbt bnde bodoh, ak xbt bnde plik..he's d 1 who is lyk..plik..ak lbeyh tau la..pe yg die dh bt kat ak..bkn bnde bruk..tp..effect die kat ak la..hahaha..only d glove box noes hows d story goes..hahah..2 lgu..hahah..so now..ak ok..klo x ok pon kne ok gak..so cm 2 la..xpe..ak syukor la Allah kc ak ad prsn2 cm nie..bnyk prsn..hahah..so dat i cud experience all tis..rise n fall..ok la 2..ak pon bkn dak kcik lg dh..dh bsr dh..ad prob solve la sndrik..nie pon bkn mslh..so cm 2 la..

"pretending everything is right to make it better"

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p/s: m fine farah ida n lisa..korg xyah la risao psl ak..myb ak akn bad mood 4 a while..so m sorry..but i'll try my best 2 x 2..i'll b fine..korg doakan la gak..hahaha..

layout..??

bek la..ak mls dh nk yg lip lap lip lap nye pg..nk cri yg static..so nie je yg ad..mke gune yg nie dlu..nt ak tukor yg len..hahaha..

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p/s: pyzam akn jd mgse skali lg..hahaahaha

dilemma? confuse? pilihan? aper nieh??

hahaaha..tbe2 ak rse..idop ak lwk..tbe2 ak rse idop ak cm tlalo bnyk mnde utk d pkirkan..utk d decide..utk d plih..hahhaah..n utk d bnyk lg..well, post nie psl boys lah..farah dh bjye bt ak gusar dgn idop ak sbb ak dh jejak 18 so die kt 18 nie mse nie la sume nk tmbol..cm2 dilemma, mslh la pe la psl rltnship n stuf..ak cm ok..xpe..well..rite now..ak dh rse vibes die..getaran die..

dgn 1 hambe Allah nie ak rse, ak ngn die nie complicated..utk ak la..xtau la die..mama pon dh bg statements utk hal ak yg nie..well..mulot org len mgkn ak xmo trime..tp mama sndrik yg ckp..ak xleh nk kt pe la..mama kt 1 day die confess la klo btol..ak cm..ok je la..xhal pon..tp cm adeh..funny la...hahaha..but die cm slumber, so ak pon slumber je la..nk kt men trik tali pon ad..ntah la..hahahaha...

yg lg 1 hamba Allah nie plak, klo tjmpe ak, tmaloo2, tsegan2..curik2 pndg..nie sume mmbr2 ak la ckp..i dun c it myself pon..so..xtau la nk judge cmne..but ak bknnye knal die sgt pon..stkat pnah tgor skali..then pstu cm tgk muke je la..cm 2..hahaha..myb die nk try kwn tp maloo kot..ak nie kat jnis ske ati mak bpk..xtau la..hahaha..tp ala2..cumelnye..maloo..hahaha..

tp..man!! tis is weird..neva experience it b4..n now..tbe2 dtg mngejot..ak cm..culture shock gak la..y la dude? cm 2..hahaha..strange is wat we aim for n here it is..hahaa..but both of them seems nice..i dunnoe..tkot ak prsn sorunk2 je..hahah..well..2 adlh hobby ak pe..prsn..hahaah..

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p/s: enjoy life 2 d fullest..enjoy every moment of it..Alhamdulillah..time kaseh Allah coz kc ak rse mnde nieh..sgt cumel prsn2 nie sbnrnye..tp ak je tkot jd out of control wif my heavy thinking..hahhaah..

future yg bkenaan dgn kje..

dh 2 3 kali dh mama dok ckp psl wat wud i b after grad..mama lai2 akn kt "ala, abes bljr nt pe sush? continue je la bisnes kte nieh..sp elg nk cont all tis klo x adek ngn abg? tol x? u dun hv 2 worry about a thing..juz study hard, complete it n a job is already waiting 4 u.." ak cm..hahaha..gle bljr law lai2 kje bisnes bpk sndrik..cre abg n abh cm nk surh ak pursue kjye as a lawyer..but i dunnoe..myb ak amek path lawyer nie for few yrs then bru ke bisnes sndrik..but sumhow, nme ak dh pon stated in my co. ..cmne 2? tkot conflict pkrjn..hahaah..ak xsure la..haha..mkin ak pkir mkin cm alaa..pe sush..abes dlu stadi..chmbering..kje la jap kat law firm mne2..pstu quit klo bisnes abah mmrlukan ak..coz skunk nie pon dh klam kabot sket sbb abh n abg sbok dok kjar ngn guard2 yg ske bt hal, commitees yg ske complain n other things lg..so kje ketas nie letak kat mama n kdg2 k cik tlg..financial pon abh handle..cri contract abh n abg..so..ak rse..klo ad nex time leh la tlg..klo ikot kpale ak, mama leh la hndle financial, ak sgle paper works n those stuffs, abh anbg leh sttle guards..mgkn abh kat area tgh n abg kat area utare ke..vice versa ke..2 ak xtau la..ntah la..xtau la..plan je..Allah tentukan..so cm 2 la..hahaha..

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p/s: rse cm nk cubit, gigit je mama ats statement2 yg d brikan smlm..mama nie!! hahahaha..