Tuesday, November 30, 2010

and who said TOP cant sing?

hear him sing..gosh..his voice..so..tempting..so..alluring..coz it's so..deep..and..manly..unnfff...

i love this part the most..pardon taeyang on becoming top's personal background dancer..lol but tira..see taeyang's shirt..it's gun n roses! lol OH I LOVE HIM SINGING THIS SONG!

actually, what song is this? oh..im so..in love with his voice..singing this song..owhh..just like tira said.."i wanna make love with his voice!" though tira meant axl's (gnr) voice..but yeah..


p/s : he should try singing more..

Monday, November 29, 2010

what i wanna be, when i was young..

"i dont feel happy..i am all so sappy..dont be like me..it is scary..like living in solitary.."

well this is what i feel right now..i dont know why..coz since morning till the evening, i was fine..i mean, i was laughing with my friends and so..then..in a flick..i went all sappy..maybe coz the song i heard in farah's car..and..the fact that it's raining..it compliments well with the mood..

well..put that aside..my post for today..after a few days since the last post..is this..well..i wanna tell ya guys a secret..maybe..ya guys think i'm faking it..but..got to tell ya, i wont lie if im in a not-so-good mood..and a secret wont actually stay that long..somehow a person will spill it someday..whether the owner of the secret, or it emerge to other people's ear itself..oh did i make it sound so serious? lol well..here it goes..WHEN I WAS YOUNG..I USED TO..WANNA BE A RAPPER..there i said it! now, i could see some of ya guys making weird faces, gestures and scratches..

well..again..im not lying to ya..it's not about TOP and his devotion to rap, hip hop music..no no no..let me tell ya the real story..i have a brother who loves rnb and hip hop music..so..when i was like this lil kid..he's been giving me these kinda songs to listen to..well actually, i've been hearing his songs though i didnt even know what it meant..he listens to bone thugs and harmony, fat joe, fabulous, jay z, p diddy of course, notorious B.I.G and some other rappers too..even the underground rappers..he even listens to chinese rappers like LMF..well..practically so did i..since i've been following whatever he listens to, clothings and stuff..yes..i wore and still wearing baggy shirts and jeans..i even lowered my jeans..lol it's funny but my brother is my biggest influence..and he likes it when i followed him..but now, he asked me to lessen the guys kinda thing and more to lady like..lol

so, i think when i was in elementary school..i used to try to rap..just following the words of the lyrics..though it's kinda funny since, im not that good in english that time..but still, i copied it..i know..it must sounded so horrible..lol..then..as i grow older..like..between the end of elementary life to high school life..i kinda know what's rap..the words..and stuff..starting to understand the meanings too..and im into cornrows..dreadlocks..those kinda things..hehehe..which i did the hairstyles..hehehe

and from that..i start to rap, though it's below than mediocre..lol..i mean like..yeah, for me..i think..it's freestyle..but i only did it for a few lines..and i tried to make it as rhythmic as possible..ehehe..but im more to just use the rap existed in a song..following the flow..singing and rapping..and normally i just do it to myself..i dont do it publicly..hehehe afraid of embarrassment, i supposed..well..somehow..i do came up with a few lines and put it somewhere for status..like the ones up here..i put it up as my fb status and ym too..hehehe by writing it and posting it as status, i'll have the positive feeling..but rapping it, literally..oh gosh..DUN WANNA!

"now i feel a bit of happiness in me..coz mama called maybe..the sadness fly free..like a bee..oh em gee..dont sting me..it's not worthy..like seriously..trust me.."

hehehe..that's how i feel now..heheh..n yeah..it's bad right? lol at least..i've tried..hehehe well..back to the story..i even tried to compose in malay..which sounded so "jiwang"..or too romantic? lol..sometimes, i think i composed it so gibberish-ly..which i dont know..hahahah i just wanna laugh at it..like this one..the one above this paragraph..i think it's totally a crap..gibberish..lol

well..im just doing this for fun..so i dont mind if it's stink or sucks or whatever ya guys wanna put it as..but im open to any criticism! hehehe well..im not good with words..so i dont expect much..it's not like im a pro or something..hehehe if i am, i'll so happy..i guess..hehehe well..like i said..i used to dream on becoming a rapper..which i doubt would be possible..lol but somehow, the dream seems to relive back in me..lol but..again..i wont do it publicly..unless..writing it..a few lines..then, that's it..it's good enough to rap others' words in their own songs..rather than me, composing and trying to use other people's song to go with the words..it will sound bad..horrible..extremely low than mediocre..lol

yeah..that's bout it yo..and i think..i should get a notebook to keep those words of mine..so that it can be my reminiscents..right?


p/s : listening to TOP's 'to act as if nothing's wrong' (repeating it again and again) while writing this post..it inspires me..a lot..lol

Saturday, November 27, 2010


well..recently..i've been wearing my chullo whenever im at home..what's a chullo? chullo, based on wikipedia,

"is a style of hat with earflaps made from vicuña, alpaca, llama or sheep's wool,[1]. Alpaca has insulating wool-like qualities that help to insulate its wearer from the harsh elements in the Andean Mountain region. Chullos often have ear-flaps that can be tied under the chin, to further warm the wearer's head.

Chullos have been used in the Andean Mountain region since pre-Hispanic times and wearing different types and colors has a significance among the Andean natives."

i dont even know why..but i like wearing it when im at home..but i only have one..and an old one..a black and white chullo..hehehe..maybe coz it's warm and comfy..and so, i did planned to buy some more of this chullo..suggestions? hehehe

this afternoon, i went to ain's house..she was shocked..i guess..seeing me wearing chullo..since malaysia's hot..and not many will wear chullos in malaysia..she said.."is this inspired by TOP or what? are you copying him? lol" well, lol..dear ain, im not..i love chullos since young..since i think it's cute! lol well..eventually, it just happened that TOP wore chullos too..but he's more to beanies that chullos..hehehe..so, here is a picture of him wearing a chullo..cute eyh? lol

but i like g-dragon's chullo better..since it's bigger and longer..i wanna search and buy that kind of chullos..

somehow, i kinda like beanies too..and big snow caps..like those that can cover till your eyes..but still..im sticking with chullos..since the pattern is always unique..and not many people will wear it, especially in malaysia..heheheh..I LOVE UNIQUENESS..heheheh


p/s : where can i find them in cheaper price in malaysia?

Friday, November 26, 2010

Love Language

You say good morning, and good evening
The day is done, and you've come to find
The words are fleeting, I hear your quiet breathing
Is something wrong?

You come on two knees, with more than two needs
Finding that it's all too easy
To be helped and found
You slept and he said

It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, to find your way home

Daylight's coming, the sun is blazing
New beginnings seep into you
But in the end it's distant shadows
That finally overwhelm your senses
And this time around
Is it love that you crown?
And this time around
You'll be more than who you are

It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, to find your way home


Whoa oh oh oh...

Could you find yourself a way home? (4x)

It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, (ohh) to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, (ohh) to find your way home

song title : peaches
band : new heights

isnt this cute? isnt this sweet? hell yeah! love doesnt have to be communicated with mouth..actions, writings are good enough to reach other people's heart..and that's why people said action speaks louder than words..because actions give more impact and everyone can understand what you are trying to tell rather than words that spoken may be vague and misunderstood..and can be lies..but people tend to think that to speak is the only communication there is..but this video proved us wrong..even people who are dumb or cant speak can communicate with normal people..

and love doesnt meant for normal human beings only..people with deaf, dumb etc problems are also human that can be love or be in love or to love another person..they are also normal human beings..and there are times that we can't actually find a word to say or a way to speak to a person..so,i think this video, besides the sweet thing, it actually makes us realize that everything is possible and a communication in any ways will reach the person's heart and understanding..


p/s : as the owner of the video said : "There are moments in life when we feel a connection so deep words can hardly describe it. But how do we know that it's real?"

p/s : i sounded so serious..right? yeah..i just realized it though..lol and i think i'm talking crap..thank you mooting's written submission! you're officially making me, not me! as in me, me! ok whatever! lol

neyo - one in a million lyrics

Jet setter
Go getter
Nothing better
Call me Mr. been there done that
Top model chick to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few
But I've never met one like you

Been all over the world
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere
With a little bit of everyone
All the girls I've been with
Things I've seen it takes much to impress
But sure enough you go it makes your soul stand up from all the rest

I can be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about your look
Talking about I can't do it for you
But you can do it for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it
All we do is win baby

I could be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Baby you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

Timing girl
Only one in the world
Just one of a kind
She mine

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me
Baby (girl) you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this


p/s : wishing that someone could sing this for me..in a very honest and sincere kinda way..but i know it aint gonna be true..but just wishing.. :P

ciara - and i

"And I"

[verse 1]
I dont need me a basketball player
All I need is somebody thats down for me
And he dont have to have money
His love is just like honey
Its so sweet to me
He can have everything in this world
But he'll sacrafice it all for me
And I made up my mind
Im in love this time
And it feels so real

And I
Know that he wont break my heart
And I
Know that we wont ever part
Its time, time for us to settle down
And I
Wanna be with him forever

[verse 2]
They can say that I am crazy
For makin him mah baby
But that's how it's gone be
See I done been through many changes
But this one I aint changing
It's gon' stay the same
I can have everything in this world
But I'll sacrafice it all for him
And I made up my mind
Im in love this time
And it feels so real


I love you
And all of the things that you do
Oh baby please
I need you (I need you)
So believe me (I do)
I do (oOoOOo)
Cause I love you (I love you)
And every lil thing baby (you do)
No no OoO whooOooa OooOo
They don't know how I feel
Cause I know this is real

[Chorus 2x]

well..suddenly i missed this song..so i'm listening to it right now..repeating it again and again..oh i love this song..one of my fav rnb songs..hehehe the love is so..lovey dovey? lol it's like the lady really in love with the guy..she doesnt care about the wealth o anything else..just the love she desires..though in the video clip, the guy cheated on her..which is not a wise move..but i love the bodyguard..secretly in love with here..and a very nice gentleman..hehehe..well..yeah..that's about it..enjoy!


p/s : it doesnt relate with anything or anyone okay? hahaha just wanted to listen to it..nothing more..nothing less.. ^___^

Thursday, November 25, 2010


well..hello there peeps..remember my previous post saying that i wanted to buy something for myself for my bday? well..finally i've decided something n bought it..these are the things!

TOP's photo with original signature!!!!! OH EM GEEE!!!

a cute phone strap..it's TOP's name written in korean! my CHOI SEUNG HYUN~~ hehehehe

sorry the picture is like this..i cant rotate it..but still..I AM SOOOOO HAPPPPYYYYYYY!!!!

well actually i didnt plan on buying these..it's just that i opened ebay's website..and at first i didnt know what to search for..suddenly, big bang popped into my mind..mainly it's TOP..hehehe..so i went on searching..than this seller, is practically malaysian and the transaction is so much easier since, if he/she is an international seller, they might want to use paypal..and i dont have credit card..and eventually, the items of my seller sells are mostly on korean products especially related to celebs..she got big bang, snsd, suju n much more..so i was kinda attracted to her items..since it's not that costly..but actually bcoz she got quite a number of TOP's things..hehehe well..everything will be cheap for me if it's TOP's..hehehe

i really freaked out when i saw she's selling the TOP's photo with autograph..i thought it was a fake at first..then i emailed her asking bout this thing and other stuff..she's a very good seller..she literally explained everything with patience..suddenly..i just said to myself.."ok..just buy it.." lol and at the same time, i was aiming the phone strap too..thus..i bought them both..heheheheh the price? well..let it be my secret..hehehe..

so today..finally the things arrived..actually yesterday but i collected it just now, after class..i thought, it was kinda late..since the seller said she has sent it a few days ago using poslaju..but it's fine now..i am so so SO HAPPY! hehehe the things are in good shape..n the photo, the autograph is real people! i can see it's not printed and signed using a marker..n it's exactly like TOP's signature..so i'm very sure it's not fake..hehehe

well i guess..i maybe gonna buy some other things again from her..i've seen a few things that im interested in..but we'll see..ehehehe oh yeah! she is even selling something similar g-dragon's earrings..which caught my eyes..im waiting for her to sell maybe a clone to TOP's earrings..or rings..hehehe

fin weeeee~~~

p/s : relieved..and excited..hehehehe aiming for TOP's _____ next!

TOP's silver hair?

it's funny..for me..it doesnt suit him..this is for the HIGH HIGH MV..anyhow..he n gd looked hot and just like pimps yo! ehehe..cant wait to watch the full mv! gonna be a blast! for more pics from the high high mv party, u can search it at bigbangupdates blog..they got everything there..hehehe

somehow i think, top looks like a villain..a very handsome villain..which suit his badass face..hehehe


p/s : wishing that i was one of those who got invited..eheheh

Wednesday, November 24, 2010


(Check check ...this happened for real ...baby bash..yo.. frankie j.... obession)

Its early in the morning
And my heart is really lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted in the head
And I dont know how to take it
But its driving me so crazy
I dont know if its right
I'm tossin turning in my bed
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And I still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
I'm feeling hopeless in my home
I dont know what to do but I think I'm in love

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Now I know you're not my lady I'm just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do I'm going out of my mind
So baby if u let me could I getchu to say maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite now I dont care if u got a man
Baby I wish you'd understand
Cuz I kno he cant love u right, quite like I can
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And I still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
I'm feeling hopeless at home
I dont kno what to do but I think I'm in love

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
Its an obsession

[Baby Bash]
Hold up let me dream
Shorty got me feelin less supreme
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent
Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, I love to spend it
And thats whats up and I dont care what people scream
You're my blessin when I'm stressin
My superfly beauty queen
I'm gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my money know how I do, we go rendez-vous, mi corazon belongs to you

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong) what am I do wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
What am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong?) what am I do so wrong? [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?


artists : frankie j feat. baby bash

suddenly i got the mood to listen to rnb n hip hop tonight..this song was one of my fav..during high school..lol..maybe coz i had a crush on someone that time..yeah..hahaha well..still loving this song..hehehe frankie j's voice is so making me melt..lol


p/s : singing so whole heartedly while thinking oneself has the same voice as frankie j..lol

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

to act as if nothing's wrong (big show)

much cooler and not so emotional like last time..oh he's so effin GORGEOUS!


p/s : null.

Monday, November 22, 2010

TIRA!! LIHAT INI!! [pic spam]

look at this one tooo!! click here..

since u like fatherly guys..hehehehe and..since u like gd-taeyang thing..lol..loving couple! lol

do you believe in it?

well..last night..me and tira were skype-ing and stuff..then we decided to just do our work..which is tort..then..because of the tension that created by the assignment, we ended up *while doing the assignment, duhh~~* finding the things relating to our horoscopes..like the personality of a sign, compatibility, rising sun, moon sign and stuff..lol..it's funny since tira has mistakenly believed that her mars is incompatible to her..well..depending on the sign itself..

well..mostly for me it's either the sign of scorpio or virgo..my venus is virgo and my mars is scorpio..oh i feel so lucky! wanna know why? coz TOP's scorpio! lol mars here means, who i'm compatible with, i mean the sign..sadly i'm a scorpio, and scorpio is likely to be most suitable with its own sign..which actually a great thing..since scorpions are romantic, sexy and bla3..i just dont to mention it here since it's too..how to put this..?? urmm..overrated of romanticness..lol..and too much of sexiness involved..no wonder i get attracted and into TOP and became so obsessive..hahaha..scorpion guys are..ummpphhhh..lol..uppss..but it's according to the horoscope thing..which..they are so..unnffff...lol...it cant be described..lol we, scorpions, are like a walking magnet..gosh! am i? i dont think so..tabi? definite yes..lol "o now you're so happy..u can have TOP since your signs are scorpio! hehehe" said tira..well..hell yeah! we are meant to be? arent we? lol

me and a taurus person can be considered as compatible too..okay, no wonder i like fabregas, taeyang etc..lol..sorry tira..not that i want a taurus..u may have them..it's okay..taurus is so my opposite..lol

but for friendship kinda thing, im aquarius, which like tira said to me, no wonder me and her can easily attached..we have the same mind..something2..hahaha

tira and her taurean thing..lol..funny..first she thought taurus is a big no no..well..actually yes..but then..as we went further searching, it's actually that she could easily attracted or or attracting taureans..lol..gosh! like she said, "no wonder i attracted to taeyang!" yes, taeyang, the buffy guy..i offered her daesung which happens to be a taurean, sadly, ignored..lol..so tira, go and seduce your manly taeyang! but he may be shy, so use all the power u got to seduce him! lol

well..actually..i dont believe in these things..it's just for fun..you know..to push away all the stress..just for a while..when we get back to reality, it's all God's work..we human just pray for the best! hehehe but if i do get TOP, dont be jealous! lol kidding2!


p/s : sleep deprived bcoz of these tort-uring assignment..

big bang's photoshooting for 2011 calendar n diary

source : Maknaelove

Sunday, November 21, 2010

TOP lalala~

it's already 5 am..i didnt even realized it..hahahah okay..just wanna post it since i think it's cute..i think TOP is as cute as a puppy..or maybe a kitten? well..he's cute..hahahah well thanks to jbgirl15 for posting this in youtube..heheh awww~ can i pinch him like gd did? i wanna! i wanna! I WANNA! lol

well..speaking of gd..God! i dont know what happened..but it's so easy for me to dream of gd rather than TOP..it's not bad..but yall know im TOP biased..fer sure i want TOP in my dreams..ok..not in that dirty kinda way..a good innocent way okay? lol *this goes to you tira!**staring at tira with sharp eyes* lol but since, gd's cute too..so..i dont mind..eheheh not that i want them all *startled*..hahaha but it just happened..dream is not something that we can set..unlike fantasy..which is private and depending to one's desire on how it should be and who should be in it..hahahah upps..next!

well..a few nights ago, *it sounded better with 'day' than 'night'! lol!* i dreamed something..TOP was in it..which only for a few seconds..the only thing i could remember was his hair..it's wavy..maybe coz the post i made previously? hahaha i guess so..

same night..i dreamed of going to a jusco, near my house..a confirmed place..hahah..i was on the passenger seat, next to the driver..we were in a parking lot..i asked the 'driver' to park at the spot that i pointed..then suddenly, when the driver spoke, it was g-dragon..with his bleach-heartbreaker hair! lol..awww..cute! hehehe he was kinda stubborn..he wanted to park at another spot..which isnt far from where i pointed..we kinda argued about that..which i think it's adorable! lol stupid argument right? yeah, i know! lol..

TO TIRA, DONT BE JEALOUS..I CANT SEND THEM TO YA..especially gd..he was like..'attached' to my dreams..lol..and whenever he's in my dream, we would be like, something like..urmm..couple or something..again tira, it's not my fault..i was just enjoying the 'drama'..and will be..hahaha maybe me and gd's souls always bumped to each other..lol well some people said if we were to dream about someone, or a person appeared in our dream, our soul and their soul meet each other..maybe my soul has accidentally went out with gd's soul..aww..i approved..hahahaha kidding people..big bang vips, especially g-dragon's fans, dont be mad..it's for everyone's entertainment..*giving yall the most innocent look ever~!!* of course i wont be the one that gd or TOP would make as a girlfriend..duhh~~ im infamous..hahahah but if i could, then i would love to..hahaha okay2..sorry2..they (including taeyang, seungri and daesung) are everyone's (vips/fans)..not just mine..alright? :D

if let say..just if..one of the big bang members or ya know..if..they ever read my blog post..one of the post that i wrote of anyone of them..they must be laughing hard at me..i know..hahaha..if i knew that they read any post of mine, i guess..i may be screaming so hard till my throat's torn..and if..only if they post a comment on my post, any of it..i'll say..i may undergo a state of unconsciousness..which i dont know for how long..and then i'll wake up and reply the comment back..if i am able to write a reply..if not..i'll undergo the process of unconsciousness all over again..lol..anyhow..it's just an 'IF'..but who knows..if im lucky..they read and comment..which i know it's impossible..but if they do, i just dont know what to do or say..i may be speechless in words and writings..hahahaha is that bad? i think it's not..though i know no one will answer this but if it happens to you all, what would you do? hehehe


p/s : the hazelnut ice blended from coffee bean turned me into these..a sleepless monster who babbles about unnecessary things..and laughing to alone and talking to oneself..people may think im crazy..well..i am..lol..

p/s : i wish there are people, who's a stranger, who would give a comment to the post i made..any post..since..im interested to know whether my blog can be categorized as bad, mediocre, average or good, maybe..ya know..maybe critics on my language..coz i know, my english is somehow not good..grammatical errors are everywhere..and stuff like that..hope to see new people to comment on my blog..please do..hehehe..to my friends,you are more than invited to write any comment..hehehehe

i'm zombified.

wooaahhh..i feel refreshed...i just took my shower..again..since i just came home from campus, done some discussions with ida deary on tort assignment and some other things too..*winking at ida constantly* lol..we were having a blast..though it's so hot in malacca..and the aircond seemed to be dysfunction..which i hate..we had this 'trivia' thing..hahaha..it's funny..

okay..actually that is not what i intended to tell ya guys about..well it's about my day..last friday..i dont wanna say it's a bad day..but yeah..it's quite a bad day for me..well..on the day before, i went to tight up my braces, so definitely i would feel the pain on the next day..thus, on that friday, which i planned to wake up early but it turned out that i woke up at 12..due to the pain, thanks to Mr Bracie here..oh yeah..the reason i wanna wake up early was coz i wanna go to the maxis centre to fix my bb..but since i accidentally woke up late, i decided i would just go after the friday prayers..i called my brother, told him bout this n he agreed to it..since mom asked him to go with me and the bb and bill are under his name..so yeah..hahaha..he just had to go with me..yay! not alone! lol

then..we arrived at the maxis centre, located at the one and only KLCC..didnt take long enough to queue at the reception to get the number..but the sufferings started when we have to wait for our turn..come on..i think it has 20 counters? i had to wait at least 30 mins which it was about 9 persons before me..so..i think..it's quite long and very boring..my bro almost slept while waiting..hahahah pity him since he didnt eat anything before we went to the place..

at the counter..well..basically..i think..the guy didnt know anything and stunned by what had happened to my bb..he didnt know how to encounter the prob..cut to the chase, my bb would be send somewhere, which i forgot..and..i would get a new one..in another 2 weeks..hence, IM LOST AND ZOMBIFIED WITHOUT MY BB..coz, there goes my internet source..there goes my entertainment..well..i wont say that im depending on it much..but it's one of my essentials..but..what can i do? i just have to bear it for these 2 weeks..mom's quite worried bout this..dad was fine..bro said it's all depend on me now, where to get the internet and stuff..since, assignments are piling up..internet is one thing i needed the most now..so yeah..i'm MISS INDEPENDENT..i'll handle and deal this myself..lol..sounded so wrong..lol

next..urmm..it's been a few days, maybe a week, there's a rotten smell came up from the garage..so..on the same day..after we had dinner..mom said she wanna see, if there's anything died there..so me, mom, dad and my cuz went to the 'site' to do the 'project'..hahaha so i moved my car to make some space since the smell came from the flower pots at the side there..when space was made, the smell suddenly harden which mom would smelt lesser since she tight a towel to her nose and mouth..she's safe..me, dad and cuz faces were 'bare naked'..lol but me and cuz was constantly covering our nose since the smell was too..how to say? urmm..ewww?? lol dad was like, no big deal..it didnt have any effect on him..well, he was an army and he used to those strong rotten smell, dead people/animal smell..so he was totally fine with it..then dad went to get the water hose ready..mom with broom..me and cuz try to move some of the flower pots..then..dad moved a pot and suddenly..BALABOOM! there's a corpse..ok..dead kitten..*i guess* with maggots all over..those maggots were FAT! and the corpse's intestines were blurghhh out and no head..and..ergghh..basically, it's out of shape..at first we thought it was a rat or something..but we mutually agreed it's a kitten..lol long story short, we try to clean it by pushing the dead thing away, away to the big drain..pushed the maggots, but it's so hard so mom splashed some chlorox or bleach but it didnt work/die so, keep pushing it with brooms and water..and at the time mom pushed the dead thing to the big drain, it stuck/hanged between the rails..which it was so ewww!!! it's like u know, urmm sliced meat hanged...with blood and everything..not to be girlish or what, but it was so eww..and me and cuz screamed and screamed through the whole process..i suggested we could enter the scream queens..hahahaha i'm a hardcore person but too much of extremeness? well, i'm out yo! it's very ewwww-ish..lol

oh yeah..before i forgot..during the cleaning-the-dead-thing process, i made a statement..i made it when mom said that dad seemed to be not affected by the rotten smell..i said "if i were to marry a guy, may him be like dad..brave, doesnt affected by this small thing..not running away if we have to do this kinda thing.." well i said it with a laugh..though it was kinda serious..i think..heheh....mom kinda heard it and laughed at it..and she said it again since dad didnt hear it..dad just smiled..cuz seemed to make fun of me but when i said "i wanna marry a guy who's responsible, not afraid to this kinda things..if i could do it, he should too..right? and if he runs away, just to this small thing, that means he's not man enough..to me.." she (my cuz) was shocked but laughed and smiled..she said, "didnt you like those cute guys? those boyish guys? some of them wont be that tough ya know?" so i added "i may like guys with pretty face but i hope it comes with the package..hahaha..but somehow..i rather look for character/personality than face, if it's about marriage we're talking about..the face? it's just for fun..but if i got the whole pretty face-strong-brave-responsible-matured-but-sometimes childish-package, i would be very glad..lol!" mom and dad kinda listened to it and smiled..no3..they laughed..my bro was kinda heard it too..i guess..i saw him smiled..lol..gosh! then only i felt ashamed, embarrassed..i've said it so wrongly *for me*, since i think i sounded so old and so serious..well..it was serious but somehow funny..

the whole night, mom practically used those statements to tease me..n we agreed that that's why it's hard for me to have someone, since i dont/ never have one..and those who wanna try me, they'll surely run away before things getting better..and..it would be a long way to go for i am to have someone..maybe just someone who'll be the permanent guy in my life..?? like..'the one and only'? since i've put a very high standard..that's what everyone said..even mom too..but..for me..it's merely said..but God had created what He thought best, so we wont know till the time comes..im not saying im excited but i can say im curious to know who'll be the guy that will rock my life or as what i referred to as 'my victim'..lol rock here means by making my life happier, not worsen it..hahahah well..it seems that, not just me who's curious..i could see my friends and mom and cousins are curious about it too..well they said im too unapproachable..since im rough, talk/laugh/etc loudly, im ignorant, and more..so..guys dont dig/feel me..okay? hahaha well..it's my nature..*giving a cute, innocent smile* i am mandy..mandy is supposed to look bad..hahahah well..no..for me..it's not the time yet..the time to change to a..you know..those graceful ladies..but i'm trying..but..dont push me..i'll rebel..let me do it slowly..okay? but i wont accept guys if they choose me bcoz i've changed to someone nicer or whatever..i want them to accept me for me..i mean the forever rough, ignorant etc me..but i'll be a good lil princess who dress up gracefully and do things very soft and pleasantly when needed..ok? :D

to those guys out there, if you are reading these, yeah i know i'm demanding and bla3..sorry bout that..but..ya know..all women/ladies/girls want a responsible guy..a guy who would be their shining armor..who would protect them from any danger..the matured/childish etc part, it depends on that female herself..but for me, i like guys who can be matured or childish on the right time and place..doesnt mind to lead or being lead..considerate, knows how to give and take..other than that, let me keep it to myself..i know it's too much to ask but, God definitely has set the best to His creations..and we knew that it wont go our way, sometimes..right? so yeah..i dont mind..if it's 'jodoh', fate..i'll accept it with an open heart, insyaAllah.. :D but for now..im cool with what i have..i mean being solo and stuff..it doesnt bother me at all..though people did questioned about my status/orientation..here, i wanna make it clear that I AM STRAIGHT and i like guys..no3..i love guys..lol..well..if not, why would i be drooling over cesc fabregas, randy orton and even this TOP guy? *only named a few, others are kept safe in me..lol* it's just that i dont have the 'real someone'..people dont get attracted by me..lol..but im easily get attracted to them..lmao! okay..so..i'll love famous guys, until i have someone..even if i have someone, he cant stop me from loving these famous guys! unless, he's famous, then it may be a different story..lol..

okay..this story has gone so far..from bb to dead kitten to love stories..well..lol..this is what you get after a few days of writer's block..lol again, i wanna emphasize, dont push me! i'll pull you together! lol no3..let me take things my way, slowly and smoothly..though it may not go smoothly..but slowly and my own way..hehehe guys, i mean, males, dont be offended..which i dont think i offended anyone..heheh..but if i do, i sincerely sorry for that..bb..please come back..i mean..new bb..please come fast..kitten..may you rest in peace..me and cuz was about to make a tombstone for ya..ok..kidding..sorry kitty but may God bless you..hehehe


p/s : i'm such a good story dragger..hahaha it's that even right? 'story dragger'? okay whatever..lol lalala~~

Thursday, November 18, 2010

love the hair!

gosh! TOP's current and latest hair is wavy..and he is incredibly hot with that hair! effing sexy! just look at this vid..gossshhhh~~~!!! the hair, the eye, the voice..it's PERFECT! well almost..God's perfect..we're just human..hehehe but he's close to perfect! hehehehe i mean..look at him..he looks innocent but sexy..i just..awww~~~ and melt..hahaha and he's humble..with the award thing..and3..his acting thing goin on..i'm so3 happy..hope to see more of his drama or movie..hehehehe..congrats TABI~~~~!!!!!! and hope to see more, new hairstyles from him..he suits with everything, every style..hehehe

oh, gonna go to bed now..hope to dream of him..sweet2 TOP..hehehe nites people!

*angau gila aku ni! lol!*


p/s : ok now, i really cant wait for it..give it to me now! lol..


well..hey! right now..i mean..recently..im so into futurama..well i used to watch it when i was a young child..around the age of 8 or 9..recently..im so eager to watch a series..i thought of the simpsons...and suddenly it reminds me of futurama..so..i've decided to watch it here..i think it's complete here..so yeah..that's about it..hehehe..but i'll watch it slowly since the work's starting to pile up..hehehe..

simple synopsis of futurama : Phillip Fry is a 25-year-old pizza delivery boy whose life is going nowhere. When he accidentally freezes himself on December 31, 1999, he wakes up 1,000 years in the future and has a chance to make a fresh start. He goes to work for the Planet Express Corporation, a futuristic delivery service that transports packages to all five quadrants of the universe. His companions include the delivery ship's captain, Leela, a beautiful one-eyed female alien who kicks some serious butt, and Bender, a robot with very human flaws.


p/s : oh i cant wait..i just cant wait to get my hands on it.. :D

Sunday, November 14, 2010

blackberry a.k.a bb = b***

u know y i give that title? coz my bb kene rasuk dengan hantu setan aper ntah..aku dah cam k***ks btol mende nieh..it has been a while dah..sepanjang this week la..meragam cam aper jer..it started off dengan touchpad/trackpad die tu..die cm merewang..ak ke slide die ke kiri, die g ke atas ke mana2 ke..then..lama2 tu, die pstu buka file mana2 then ntah pape..recently die nye menu and back button lak bt hal..now..even the lock button pon cm p****k.. ak mmg hangit gler barbs la nie kan..n skrg klo call, die mute, off mute sndrik..org lgsg x dgr aper ak ckp..n annoyed coz it's constant beeping..2 mende yg btol2 functioning, i mean yg still ok adalah green and red button..yg len hampeh..keypad leyh la..tp klo dh nk buka text msg pon xleyh, inikan nk type..mmg haram jadah x dpt la kan..

good thing, it can still functioning as a modem..lagi laju internet die dari hari2 biase..wic got me thinking jugak kan..xpe la..so long yg tu leyh function well..then..ak bsyukur la gak..and another good thing is nasib baik ad anor hp..my nokia 5720..xde internet xpe..jnji leyh call n text org..emergency case kan..wahai hp ku norkiah, ak syg ko, dlu kini n selamanya..bkn ak xmau guna ko, cume xde spe nk call ak gune no yg ad pada ko..tp..ko mseh bfungsi swktu utk ak call delivery, time2 bb abes battery and others..ak sbnrnye mmg syg gle ngn ko..n skrg btmbh syg..


p/s : BAK KATA IDA, MAKIN CANGGIH MAKIN CEPAT ROSAK..100000000000% agreed!

Friday, November 12, 2010

when T.O.P fall in love..

[TRANSLATIONS] TOP Numero Magazine Interview Japan

1. What is your dream for BIGBANG and for yourself as a solo artist?
BIGBANG is just like a family, so we aim the same thing no matter what place we’re at. Our dream is to make another legend(?)-like stage, just like what we’ve done this far. We want to be the valuable ones so that everyone can call “the time of BIGBANG”. *it will happen honey! lol!*

2. What’s the difference between doing the stage with BIGBANG and as a solo artist?
For my solo experience, I get to experience acting in movies and dramas. It’s not like music at all. I want to keep my acting career going as long as there are people who still want to see me act. Yet I’m not at the place where I get to pick what I want to act because I’m still a newbie. But I want to surprise fans for my next character and hoped that it would be awesome. *hope to see more of his acting..speaking of that, when am i gonna watch MY19..haihhh..will watch it soon! :D*

3. Recently, what moved you the most while doing stages with BIGBANG?
Every day is a success and it moves me. The fact that I live this life every day is touching. *aww..it's like a wisdom..he really appreciates his life..we should too..*

4. The most happy moment privately with just yourself?
Half a year ago, many things had happened, but the happiest thing for me was the hit movie which I was in, “Into the Fire”, and many people approved my acting in the movie. *that movie is so awesome! glad he won the award for that movie of his! :D*

5. What roles do you members play in a team?
The other members are saying that I’m the baby, the child, but I’m actually the oldest one so I play the father too. *laughs* I play both sides. *lmao! so not! i think he's more of the baby rather than the dad..he's so playful..n mischievous..lol naughty baby tabi!*

6. What do you think an ideal man needs to have?
Men with dignity. Always gentle, free spirited, and wise. I want to be a man who is not embarrassed from anything. *aww~~ u'll be that man..u will..*

7. The place which you want to go to the most?
My hotel room *laughs* *what? lol*

8. The thing you want to get?
There are too many, can’t pick. *laughs* *just said u want everything..it would be better..hahaha*

9. The most precious thing you have now?
Huge bearbrick figure which is the size of a kindergarten child. I feel good even when I’m just looking at it. That and the fans! *gosh! that big? lol see! u are a baby! baby tabi! lol! awww~ u r so adorable having that and happy by just lookin at it..lol! but i want one toooooo!!! lol*

10. Your type of girl?
A girl who thinks or likes what I do. A girl who can lead. *i guess that's y u like older women..u even said infinity for age gap..sigh..hahah still..i love ya! lol*

11. The difference between Japanese and Korean girls?
I don’t know much about Japanese girls…. just the fans of BIGBANG, I think they are both calm. *awww~ he's being nice..isnt he?*

12. Store you usually shop in Japan?
Here and there, I go to Yaoyama center.

13. Brand you like?
14. What do you consider the most when you style yourself?
(13 & 14) I like John Galliano the best. I like classical suits, so also Thom Browne and Givenchy.*gosh! i'm so in love with u! we have the same taste! i like guys with classical suits! it brings the 'retro-ness' in that guy..and they will look good and stylish..hehehe plus..i love givenchy...hahaha*

15. Artist you want to work with?
I want to ask Murakami Takashi to design my solo album cover! I think my thoughts are similar to his work, so I’ll be glad if I can ask him for a design. I want to know what person he is and what thoughts he has. I so want to meet and talk to him. *cant wait to hear ur next piece~*

16. What have you been thinking recently besides music?
I’m considering what kind of movie I can do next after the movie, “Into the Fire”. *funny movies would be cool..since u are funny..and naughty..hahaha*

Japanese to Korean Translation: DCTOP
Korean to English Translation: HuisuYoon@21BANGS.com

*italic is my comments*


p/s : is he adorable or what? wishing him successssssss!!!!

tabi tabi TABI! lol!

hahaha..just posting this to say congrats to tabi..though im a bit late..hahaah..and3! gosh! he didnt have a license? hahahah nevermind..i'll drive u then..wherever u wanna go, i'll take u there..hahaha he's darn cute saying 'vip'..hahaha sounds like 'bip'..hahahaha and3! he's so humble..aww~~ hehehee

sorry im a bit high..caught up with a few things..hahaha ok..daa~~


p/s : love his hair! muah4!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

g dragon - this love lyrics (translated)

This love, yeah, yeah, yeah
This love in my thuggin' G's in, uh
I'm straight falling, that's right yeah, yeah, yeah,
This is song for y'all, yeah

For no reason today seems sadder than other days
I miss you
Now I can't say those words any more
I can't even be at your side to watch over you; this must be the end
No matter how I look at it I was stupid
I inflated false expectations and misunderstood
Yea you have a boyfriend I know that
I don't know why but it makes me like you more and more
My friends say I'm a fool
Is she really that fine? Get your act together, she was messing with you
I don't care, it doesn't matter to me
If this is the only way I can see you it's enough for me

This love I'm never falling in love again
When I see my haggard face I wonder why I'm so stupid
This love Hey you, already gone and disappeared
Never returning: fly far, far away to behind the clouds
My story has no real heart or meaning; this is like one minus two
September nineteenth I'm left alone on your birthday
Alone I'm a fallin' love shady

Do you remember? When I passed the night outside your house
I grew nervous as I waited for you
While holding a dozen roses I was already excited
But contrary to my expectations you didn't come out; the rain fell
It was only then I decided to let go
Inside your heart there must be someone else; comfort me
I'm sorry; I didn't even know that and put you on the spot (yes)
Now I'm alone again (one love)

This love I'm never falling in love again
When I see my haggard face I wonder why I'm so stupid
This love Hey you, already gone and disappeared
Never returning: fly far, far away to behind the clouds
My story has no real heart or meaning; this is like one minus two
September nineteenth I'm left alone on your birthday
Alone I'm a fallin' love shady

What am I supposed to do? Loving you
Feels like a crime; my heart is so tired right now
I want to find your guy and talk to him – we can't do this
Now I'm crazy, without you for me

This love now forgotten, buried in time
Erasing all traces from memory, why my heart hurts like this
This love so tender, too young to love
All those memories: fly far, far away to behind the clouds

This love, this love, this love, this love, this love, this love (ye)
This love, this love, this love, this love, this love, this love, ooh~
Ooh~ hoo, ooh~ hoo, ye, ye, ye, yeah yeiyeiye
Ooh~ hoo, ooh~ hoo this love ye, yeah

Hey J, look at me
After you left, it ain't the same
I'm not what I used to be
It hurts so much, you know
I need you girl
Always, all time… this love

suddenly i felt like wanted to know the meaning of this song..and..omg..aint that cute? though hurtful..still cute right? he is so in love with the girl..but the girl turned him down..aww..he keeps on trying..he's deeply madly in love with her..but he just had to forget her..awww~~ lol i think it's sweet and pure..especially when he hold the flowers so nervously but the girl wont come out..and it's raining..oh..so sad..stupid girl! but what to do..she already had someone..hehehe dear gd, nevermind, there are tons of girls out there..just pick one..hahahaha..but i'm sticking with tabi..hahaha


p/s : im so tired..i just need some good songs, sleep and TOP..can i?

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

lovin you by minnie riperton

well..finally..i found 'MY SONG'! lol..well not exactly mine..but a friend of mine, farah deary said it's my song..hahaha since my name and the 'lalalalalalala' part is somewhat rhythmic..i guess..hahahaa..

farah always sing me "lalalalalalala~ lalalalalalala~ nabila~~" hahahah and whenever she heard or sang this song, she'll said "hey! it's nabila's song!" lol! since we never know the name of the song and also the singer..so basically, we called it my song..hahaha..now..finally..i found it..thanks to ida..coz she said, it's on megamind..so i google-ed megamind, and i found this! lol!

it's a cute song..very lovey dovey..hahaahah well i dedicate this to..urmmm..who will i dedicate it to? urmmm..it supposed to be for a guy right? urmmm..lol..
TOP it is! yay! hahahaah


p/s : lovin you is easy coz you're beautiful~ lol~!!