saw this on smosh

GO TOP AND GD!! WOHOOOOOO!! ^___^






fin




p/s : who's gonna hate them? seriously? lol

TOP lalala~

it's already 5 am..i didnt even realized it..hahahah okay..just wanna post it since i think it's cute..i think TOP is as cute as a puppy..or maybe a kitten? well..he's cute..hahahah well thanks to jbgirl15 for posting this in youtube..heheh awww~ can i pinch him like gd did? i wanna! i wanna! I WANNA! lol

well..speaking of gd..God! i dont know what happened..but it's so easy for me to dream of gd rather than TOP..it's not bad..but yall know im TOP biased..fer sure i want TOP in my dreams..ok..not in that dirty kinda way..a good innocent way okay? lol *this goes to you tira!**staring at tira with sharp eyes* lol but since, gd's cute too..so..i dont mind..eheheh not that i want them all *startled*..hahaha but it just happened..dream is not something that we can set..unlike fantasy..which is private and depending to one's desire on how it should be and who should be in it..hahahah upps..next!

well..a few nights ago, *it sounded better with 'day' than 'night'! lol!* i dreamed something..TOP was in it..which only for a few seconds..the only thing i could remember was his hair..it's wavy..maybe coz the post i made previously? hahaha i guess so..

same night..i dreamed of going to a jusco, near my house..a confirmed place..hahah..i was on the passenger seat, next to the driver..we were in a parking lot..i asked the 'driver' to park at the spot that i pointed..then suddenly, when the driver spoke, it was g-dragon..with his bleach-heartbreaker hair! lol..awww..cute! hehehe he was kinda stubborn..he wanted to park at another spot..which isnt far from where i pointed..we kinda argued about that..which i think it's adorable! lol stupid argument right? yeah, i know! lol..

TO TIRA, DONT BE JEALOUS..I CANT SEND THEM TO YA..especially gd..he was like..'attached' to my dreams..lol..and whenever he's in my dream, we would be like, something like..urmm..couple or something..again tira, it's not my fault..i was just enjoying the 'drama'..and will be..hahaha maybe me and gd's souls always bumped to each other..lol well some people said if we were to dream about someone, or a person appeared in our dream, our soul and their soul meet each other..maybe my soul has accidentally went out with gd's soul..aww..i approved..hahahaha kidding people..big bang vips, especially g-dragon's fans, dont be mad..it's for everyone's entertainment..*giving yall the most innocent look ever~!!* of course i wont be the one that gd or TOP would make as a girlfriend..duhh~~ im infamous..hahahah but if i could, then i would love to..hahaha okay2..sorry2..they (including taeyang, seungri and daesung) are everyone's (vips/fans)..not just mine..alright? :D

if let say..just if..one of the big bang members or ya know..if..they ever read my blog post..one of the post that i wrote of anyone of them..they must be laughing hard at me..i know..hahaha..if i knew that they read any post of mine, i guess..i may be screaming so hard till my throat's torn..and if..only if they post a comment on my post, any of it..i'll say..i may undergo a state of unconsciousness..which i dont know for how long..and then i'll wake up and reply the comment back..if i am able to write a reply..if not..i'll undergo the process of unconsciousness all over again..lol..anyhow..it's just an 'IF'..but who knows..if im lucky..they read and comment..which i know it's impossible..but if they do, i just dont know what to do or say..i may be speechless in words and writings..hahahaha is that bad? i think it's not..though i know no one will answer this but if it happens to you all, what would you do? hehehe

fin

p/s : the hazelnut ice blended from coffee bean turned me into these..a sleepless monster who babbles about unnecessary things..and laughing to alone and talking to oneself..people may think im crazy..well..i am..lol..

p/s : i wish there are people, who's a stranger, who would give a comment to the post i made..any post..since..im interested to know whether my blog can be categorized as bad, mediocre, average or good, maybe..ya know..maybe critics on my language..coz i know, my english is somehow not good..grammatical errors are everywhere..and stuff like that..hope to see new people to comment on my blog..please do..hehehe..to my friends,you are more than invited to write any comment..hehehehe

g dragon - this love lyrics (translated)

This love, yeah, yeah, yeah
This love in my thuggin' G's in, uh
I'm straight falling, that's right yeah, yeah, yeah,
This is song for y'all, yeah

For no reason today seems sadder than other days
I miss you
Now I can't say those words any more
I can't even be at your side to watch over you; this must be the end
No matter how I look at it I was stupid
I inflated false expectations and misunderstood
Yea you have a boyfriend I know that
I don't know why but it makes me like you more and more
My friends say I'm a fool
Is she really that fine? Get your act together, she was messing with you
I don't care, it doesn't matter to me
If this is the only way I can see you it's enough for me

This love I'm never falling in love again
When I see my haggard face I wonder why I'm so stupid
This love Hey you, already gone and disappeared
Never returning: fly far, far away to behind the clouds
My story has no real heart or meaning; this is like one minus two
September nineteenth I'm left alone on your birthday
Alone I'm a fallin' love shady

Do you remember? When I passed the night outside your house
I grew nervous as I waited for you
While holding a dozen roses I was already excited
But contrary to my expectations you didn't come out; the rain fell
It was only then I decided to let go
Inside your heart there must be someone else; comfort me
I'm sorry; I didn't even know that and put you on the spot (yes)
Now I'm alone again (one love)

This love I'm never falling in love again
When I see my haggard face I wonder why I'm so stupid
This love Hey you, already gone and disappeared
Never returning: fly far, far away to behind the clouds
My story has no real heart or meaning; this is like one minus two
September nineteenth I'm left alone on your birthday
Alone I'm a fallin' love shady

What am I supposed to do? Loving you
Feels like a crime; my heart is so tired right now
I want to find your guy and talk to him – we can't do this
Now I'm crazy, without you for me

This love now forgotten, buried in time
Erasing all traces from memory, why my heart hurts like this
This love so tender, too young to love
All those memories: fly far, far away to behind the clouds

This love, this love, this love, this love, this love, this love (ye)
This love, this love, this love, this love, this love, this love, ooh~
Ooh~ hoo, ooh~ hoo, ye, ye, ye, yeah yeiyeiye
Ooh~ hoo, ooh~ hoo this love ye, yeah

Hey J, look at me
After you left, it ain't the same
I'm not what I used to be
It hurts so much, you know
I need you girl
Always, all time… this love

suddenly i felt like wanted to know the meaning of this song..and..omg..aint that cute? though hurtful..still cute right? he is so in love with the girl..but the girl turned him down..aww..he keeps on trying..he's deeply madly in love with her..but he just had to forget her..awww~~ lol i think it's sweet and pure..especially when he hold the flowers so nervously but the girl wont come out..and it's raining..oh..so sad..stupid girl! but what to do..she already had someone..hehehe dear gd, nevermind, there are tons of girls out there..just pick one..hahahaha..but i'm sticking with tabi..hahaha

fin

p/s : im so tired..i just need some good songs, sleep and TOP..can i?

[pic spam] g dragon for g market

previous post reminded me of this..since g dragon endorsing for g market..i thought hey! just post some of the pics here..hehehehe..pics thanks to allkpop.. and.. http://ibigbang.wordpress.com..

his hair is FABULOUS!! love the color! love the style~!! well..he is extrovert..hahaha ok..done!

fin

p/s: gonna pic spam others, some other time..heheeheh

fever-ish dream..

last two nights..i had a dream..it's funny since GD's in it..ahahaha he was darn cute..n his hair was exactly like this..cute! well, im writing this since tira wants to know more about the dream..i cant remember much but here it goes..

i was in a room..dark..lights off..since i think it was time to sleep..i was wearing my normal clothes..big tshirt and shorts..hair down..i was about to lay down..then i heard someone shouting..calling my name..and stuff..so i opened the door..of my room..it seems the room was quite small..since i just walked a few step from my bed to the door..i think it was only 2 3 steps..ahead..and i didnt actually have a bed..i think it was just a floor, with a mat and a pillow..so ancient chinese/japanese style..but it was so dark, so i couldnt see it clearly..but i really confident that the room was small..

then back to the shouting part..so i opened the door..there it was..a very long hallway..it was like a dorm or something..just a long hallway with rooms left and right..so..then..someone shouted.."mandy! your room! help him! please take care of him!" something2..he was holding someone..that person looked so weak..and..i was like "huh?? what?? urmm.." i was kinda resisted to it since i cant actually see the face the one he's holding..well, it seemed that i know the the guy since he knew my name but i dont think i knew who he's holding..i was curious though..but i became even more curious when the person also called out my name again and again..but in a very weak, weak voice.. "mandy~..mandy~..mandy~.." 'do i know you?' that's what i thought..then i dazed..to think who he was..his face couldnt be seen since his head faced down..

then the guy suddenly opened a door..to my room..then only i knew my room had two doors and rectangular-ish..i was shocked that he just bust into my room without me agreeing to it..but somehow i pitied the person he's holding..when he's about to lay down the person, i put a pillow underneath so he could lay the guy properly..he almost slipped the guy on me..and yes, he was kinda heavy..so we put him slowly..

i was stunned! it was GD! he was sick..sick as a dog..no3..sick as a puppy! hehehe he was shivering, whining, and sweating madly..i was blurred for a while..then the guy said GD was searching and whining for me..he couldnt stop saying my name..i was like "heh? why?" he said "just take care of him, will ya?" and so he left..quickly..

i just didnt know what to do..since he was like shivering all over..calling my name..and whined..like a kid..i just kept answering "yes, i'm here..dont worry..okay? i'm here..hold on.." then..i put the back of my hand on to his forehead..he had a fever..high fever..so i kinda wiped off his sweats on his face..and since he was wearing white shirt, like the above picture, i thought he must be uncomfortable with that, so i kinda..urmm..urmmm...opened up the buttons..*GOSH! it's not my fault! i dont have any control of my own dream!* it's to loosen him up..so put my comforter on him..i'm so scared since he shivered so much..then i put a wet towel on his forehead..he seemed to have slowed down..the shiver..still whined..and calling my name..which i think "just stop it would ya? im here..i wont go anywhere..geezz.." hahahah

looking back at it..i think he's kinda cute..and he was just like a sick puppy..i did smile while seeing him sleep..but i feel like im his mom or something..hahah i cant remember it but i think he held on to my hand..heheheeh awww~~that made me even more smiling..i also constantly stroke his hair, to calm him down..*oh i'm a nice person..hahahaha* it ended up by..urmm...i guess..i slept next to him..holding him tightly..aww~~ isnt that sweet? hahahah

i'm very sure that i didnt listen, watch or do anything that have GD as a main feature on it on that day..but i guess it's a combination of hanakimi, when sano fall sick..and..tell me goodbye..i guess i did listen or watch tell me goodbye..and yes..my fb..hahahaha..ok..so now i know..hahahah..

fin

p/s : wishing it to be TOP..but still..it's fine..GD's hot too..hahahah

omg! it's ji yong!

lain yang diharapkan, lain yang dapat..haa cam tu lah dia..hahaha..this morning, instead of having TOP in my dream, i dreamt about G-DRAGON? g-dragon or kwon ji yong, the leader of big bang..hahaha..okay, right now i feel so weird since i've been dreaming about celebs lately rather than to have people that i know or vice versa..plus, it's bout love love and love..is this the sign of insanity? or purely an advice for me? i'll go for insanity or too much fangirling..lol!

back to the story..let me tell ya what the dream was about..okay? i guess (i couldnt remember it perfectly but it's something like this) it started with my blog..yes..here..GD read my posts, i'm not sure it's about him or TOP but yeah he read it..then he emailed me..added my ym (how did he knew my email add? dont ask! lol)..so we began to start chatting there..he said, no! he REVEALED himself by telling me he IS the real GD..which i doubt, at first..but he seems so sincere to know more about the blog, me, what i knew about him and stuff..if i'm not mistaken lah..hahaha..and then, suddenly he 'merajuk'..i cant remember why he merajuk..i think about a post that i wrote..then, i tried to pujuk him somehow..but one thing's for sure, i used my BB to do the chat..when i tried to pujuk him, the funny thing is that i said "ji yong..ji yong..are you mad at me?" which is so not me! ewww..hahaah..me being so nice and blurgghhh? weird..hahaha that is the only exact sentence that i could remember..and i called him ji yong? hahahaah ok..then..because of that pretty cute sentence, we 'reconciled' so as to speak..hahaha he said he wasnt angry but something2..oh i'm such a forgetful! then..while i was ym-ing with him, a delivery was sent to me..and yes, my bb was about to be dead..i didnt charge it because of him..trying to pujuk, chatting2 with him till i forgot to charge my dear bb..hahaha..then i opened up the parcel..that time, he suddenly disappeared, bb's dead..i was like HELP! hahaha then i remembered i forgot to save his ym id (?) (if dah add, confirm2 la dah ada sekali kan? duuhh~~ stupid dream! lol) so i was kinda sad..so sad..n feeling lost..(could it be i'm in love with him? uuu~~ lol!) again, i opened up the parcel and surprised to see a brand new BB bold 2 for me! weee~ and the colour's red..crimson red or just red? somehow it's red! which i love..haahah there are something else in that parcel but it didnt focus much on that..then, i tried to operate the bb..it seems that, it has been used by someone..but not too long..i saw a lot of contacts and all of them were korean people, celebs to be exact..i could see super junior, supernova, 2pm etc..and of course there's big bang on the list..hahah and then, i searched and searched and searched..and i found GD's id! bb id! hahaha..so i 'ping' him..saying that i'm sorry that my bb's dead and asking was this bb his..and making sure that he wasnt angry at me anymore..n he said it's his but he gave it to me as a gift..n he wasnt angry..we did something like web cam while bbm-ing (which a 'heh?' pops in my mind right now)..hahaha okay, have to say this..darn he's so cute! and so nice..he made funny faces in the webcam which i think it was adorable..hehehe..using two BBs to do that okay? hahaha one just for the webcam n another for the bbm-ing!

but basically i think we were already a couple but when exactly, i dont know..oh! so! WEIRD!

and..i know why he appeared in my dream..last night i was listening to 'this love' sang by him again n again..and watched the previous vid..and i googs them but he appeared more in the googs since he is the leader..so..oh yes! the youtube! now i know..somehow..i'm happy and satisfied..it's a cute dream after all.. ;D

fin

p/s: might as well like GD now..good thing i didnt called him 'ji yong oppa' while blushing..omg..that would be funny! hahahaha