TOP and drama?

nyeelllloooowwww~ hehehe ok peeps..gotta a story to tell..well..a few nights before..i watched this malay telemovie..its about a girl who paralyzed from hip downwards, sits on wheelchair..so it's a crazy yet a sad movie..then, that night i went to sleep with my mom..sorry dad, you have to sleep on the floor because of me..it's just i wanna gossip with my mom so i just went to sleep with her..hehehe well, we love gossips! heheheh so while we were chit-chatting (dad was eavesdropping, im very sure! lol) and actually most of the time, i like to sniff my mom's arm..you know..everyone has a different smell, skin smell..i guess..i like to just sniff my mom's..and mom's kinda worried bout that since  she thought it's bad odour or something..hahaha well it's not..i guess i just missed her while im in malacca, so i tend to do that recently, whenever i went back to kl and got the chance to grab her arms and sniff..lol so that night, we even discussed about the sniffing issue..lol

so..the real story is about my dream that night..lol i cant really remember it in exact way but here it goes..

i dreamed 3 dreams..i woke up a few times, that's why..these 3 dreams have something in common, it's about me, going for the islamic exam..damn! it got me worried like  hell..will i pass? insyaAllah..i really pray for it..man! im nervous about the results..oh well..back to the story..hehehe

well only the last dream is 'recoverable'..so in that dream i was on this wheelchair..eating at the plaza siswa (our university's cafeteria) with my friends..sorry real friends, you're all not in it..somehow, they're just some strangers i've never seen before..lol it's weird though..so after having that lunch (i guess) so we went to the FOSEE building..ACR 1001! (it's one of the university's building and room)..i went up using the elevator..as soon as it opens up, i struggle to go out..i moved forward from the elevator and i saw.........TOP! in his black leather jacket, hair like in the pic..with a GIRL..so so SO CLOSE TOGETHER! i bet she's one of the classmates since she was like holding notes too but more to flirting with TOP..and i think she looked familiar..is it you tiradella? or is it you miss melody? hahaha kidding..but one thing's for sure, she didnt wear hijab! so i dont know who she is..but he was like all over her..in the sense that they were so close..just like..urmm..hugging? hahaha well..then suddenly i broke into tears..seeing them two..i was really, really heartbroken..then..i tried to escape..wishing that he'll not see me..i kinda forgot about the exam too..see! i was really3 hurt..hahaha so i tried to reverse(?) the wheelchair (i guess) but i fell to the ground..there's not much of people there..so no one helped me..TOP saw me fell..so he determinedly held out his hand to reach me..he was in sitting position (or is it he trembled down, coz it seemed like he did)..i was crawling..at first, i wanna get up on my own, while crying..but i couldnt help myself..i just keep falling..he said he's sorry all along while trying to help me..i didnt know what to do so i just have to use his help..while holding on to his arms, i cried "Dont leave me! please! i need you..please dont leave me!" i keep on saying that to him..and he keeps on saying he was very sorry for everything..when i reached his hands, he pulled me..he hugged, held me tightly..he said "im sorry..i didnt mean too..it was all just a mistake!" *aint that sweet~?? but it sounded untrustworthy, right? like he's trying to play me right? lol* and i held to his right arm so tightly..i somehow 'sniffed' his arm..*darn he smell so good! hehehe* actually i was sobbing and crying..begging him to not let me go, not to leave me..he calmed me down..i was really mad bout him cheating but the emotions run over me..i was more to begging rather than being angry.. guess i love him too much..and he was crying too..all along..while we were crawling, trying to reach each other's hands..he seemed to really mean it, the apologizes he made seemed real..it's like i cant say no or be angry with him..he seemed so honest coz he cried as much as i did..

oh yes! the girl? halfway through, when TOP crawled to me, she was like "what?! her? why??" with a very negative expression on her face..and so she just walked away..and it ended there..

it was so dramatic..God knows how it was..i could feel the sufferings even after i woke up..it left an impact for me..hahaha i mean my soul had to crawl, cry, scream etc..my soul suffered quite a lot in that dream..but it's so a romanticly sad love story kinda dream..i've never dream something like that before, as far as i can remember..but it felt so real..and the best part was i ended up in his arms..(sorry but mmu doesnt allow this right? lol) man, i feel so safe and loved! i feel really protected in his arms! both of us seems not wanting to let it all go..awww~~ hehehehe

fin

p/s : dreaming about him more haru haru..i feel happy! ^______^

family outing!

hello everyone..well finally it's semester break..and its been 2 days im at home..i have to say im bored..i dont have anything to do..ok..i have to follow my dad and bro to tapah on the same day i when back from malacca..it's effin tired but what should i do? right? so..yesterday, i just followed my parents for grocery shopping..then today, i watched ppv wwe elimination chamber and got to watch family outing..oh yeah! it's sudden but yeah! finally i got something to post here! lol ok..

well, recently..since the exam week..i've been watching and catching with family outing..man! it's very funny..it's a variety show..the casts for season 1 is jaesuk, hyori, daesung, ye jin, chun hee, sooro and jong shin..they are hilarious! then there'll be guest(s) every 2 episodes..coz 1 guest will have 2 episode..it's a must watch show..

info about the show http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Family_Outing

omg! im so in love with them..their relationship between each other..they got dumb and dumber brothers, stepmother kim and chunderella, madam lee and president yong, and etc that makes it even funnier..omg..im totally in love with lee chun hee..he is soooo clumsy though he had this model-ly like figure..it's suprising..and ye jin! gosh! she looks so sweet but she is so vicious! she could kill, catch animal like real savage girl! hahaha plus her nasal voice! lol jeasuk and daesung are like the gag masters! sooro is of course, ace of games! jong shin is the eldest, thus, always in pain..whining and scratching everytime..lol and expect the unexpected from the guests! they are all totally insane i tell ya! lol currently im watching ep 18..so far, the show never stop me from laughing hard..hehehe it's like my pain killer, anti-depressant etc heheheh

so you guys can watch it here  http://entertainments10.blogspot.com/2010/11/family-outing-season-1-eng-sub.html hehehe enjoy!

but, throughout the season, i think half way through it, ye jin and chun hee left the show due to personal reasons..it's gonna be real sad!!! and btw, i dont think im gonna watch the 2nd season..coz they've changed the casts..i dont feel it's gonna be the same..right?

fin

p/s : credits to everyone that contributed to the videos.. ^____^

love love love

My heart stops, my breathing dies, you’re leaving

My heart is freezing, I love you, I was happy

I was born as your man so I loved you endlessly

That’s it, I try to resist the urge to cry

The raindrops soak my whole body

I force myself again, look up and look at the sky

The rain enters my eyes as I think of you

And it replaces the tears I have been holding in

I loved you ‘til madness and I was so very happy

The love memories given to me send you away

Goodbye my love love love

Take care my love love love

Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body

Now good bye good bye good bye

Leave me and please be happy

One step, one step, you’re going farther away

Silently I fill up a glass of alcohol

As I hardly hold it with my hands, i let out a sigh

I drink one glass

As I think of you

I also swallow the tears I have been holding in

I loved you ‘til madness and I was so very happy

The love memories given to me send you away

Goodbye my love love love

Take care my love love love

Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body

Now good bye good bye good bye

Leave me and please be happy

One step, one step, you’re going farther away

My heart is cold, I didn’t know love

Thank you, really. I now understand that this is what love is

My heart stops, my breathing dies, you’re leaving

Good bye my love love love

Take care my love love love

Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body

Now good bye good bye good bye

Leave me and please be happy

One step, one step, you’re going farther away

The raindrops soak my whole body, I look at the sky

Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body

Now goodbye goodbye goodbye

Leave me and please be happy

One step, one step, you’re going farther 

this is actually a translated lyrics of ft island's song. well i've been searching this song for quite a while. i think it was since last year. back then i can't really remember the title of the song. so last few days, i managed to find it and since then i kept it on replay.  i love hongki/honggi's voice a lot. at first, i don't favour and even remember his face. then after i watched the family outing, then only i said to myself "oh, this hongki guy is cute and nice." so, basically i fell in love with his voice before his face just like top. hehehe and yes, these few days, i've been very unfaithful to top. it's countable the times i played top's song these few days. sorry babe. but whenever i saw news about top, i'd still scream. loudly. lol but hongki doesn't really give me the impact to scream or anything. it's only his songs. unlike top. i'll scream for whatever reason. lol

i think i may fell in love with ft island since it's like rock-ish band. pop rock. and i love that kinda genre too. so it's a good thing. i'm expanding my interests. plus, hongki's voice is somehow sounded like the x-japan's vocalist's, toshi. so, aint that nice? heheheh

fin

p/s : but top, you're still here. in my heart. always. hahaha muah3!

: easily fell in love with guys with deep or rock-ish voice.

credits to jpopasia.

Daesung (bigbang) - Covers Hot Girl Groups Dances

omg..this is so funny! i just have to post this! lol credits to UyenPhuong0509 and Ibigbangsite..

fin

p/s : he can do hip dance very well..lol

my heart by the perishers

It’s my heart you’re stealing
It’s my heart you take
It’s my heart you’re dealing with
And it’s my heart you’ll break

It’s my heart you’re taking
It’s breaking bit by bit
It’s my heart you’re dealing with
But you don’t know about it

If you’d feel like I feel
And if you’d know what I know
I don’t think you’d ever play me
I know you’d never play me

It’s my heart you’re stealing
It’s my heart you take
It’s my heart you’re dealing with
And it’s my heart you’ll break

If you’d feel like I feel
And if you’d know what I know
I don’t think you’d ever play me
I know you’d never play me

I don’t think you’d ever play me
I know you’d never play me


Fin


P/s : ouch! ;p

remembering sunday

I'm not coming back, forgive me
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak, i'm not calling
but you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt
Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair, you're driving me crazy

And out of my mind, 
keeping an eye on the world
So many thousands of feet off the ground
I'm over you now, I'm at home in the clouds
Towering over your head


-juliet simms-

todae!

ok..i have to say this..this week has made me a todae (topxdaesung) shipper!! lol i've been googling photos, watching videos etc about them together..look..i mean, they are sooooo cute together!!! and i dont mind if they really are together..they are like suitable for each other..lol gosh! lol this pairing got me crazy! especially when top tried to kiss dae on the premier of the big bang 3D..gosh! hahaah lucky dae! sadly he just tried and dae managed to avoid it somehow..hahaha click here to see it..


there are other pics where top kissed dae on the cheek and stuff..which is a-do-ra-ble!!!!! hahaha and they always hold hands..or hug..awww~~ cuteeee~~ and i just watched family outing where top as their guest..i was shocked when at first dae was all nagging at top bout this and that..and suddenly he went all obedient, lovey dovey when other mcs gone..he followed everything top said to him..hahahahah then he went back to normal when the mcs came back to the scene..awwww~~


niways..i love this pairing so much!!! weeee~~~


fin


p/s : even read fanfics about these two..hehehe

triple combo!

well the night before, i dreamed of TOP, GD and Taeyang..wuhoooo~~!! lol i guess there's seungri too..but i cant really remember it..but them three reminds me of the song Hallelujah..hahahah well, hallelujah! lol

it was like we're in a high school/college..i guess me and top were a couple..gd was there..being all jealous coz i stole his bestfriend..hahaha i think he's mad coz top's too clingy with me and forgotten him..but he said it while laughing..top protected me..weee~ hahaha top laughed a lot and happy coz we all went along very well..and then there's a scene where taeyang suddenly went to a toilet which i was just about to go out..i guess it's unisex toilet? but he was so shy..when he saw me, he straight away looked down..he was holding something in his arms..clothes i guess..but he's all buffy and cute..hahahah


fin


p/s : it was nice having hot guys in my dream..hehehe 

T.O.P or G-Dragon?

#nowplaying baby good night by GTOP..


yesterday i had caffeine for lunch and so i cant sleep last night..i slept at 7.30 this morning..darn! i was like a zombie coz my brain was already malfunction that time but my eyes..they're like pumped up..i even forgot to have dinner last night..well, at first i was too nervous that i didnt have the feeling to eat..than, my stomach starts to cramp(?) but it was already 1am..so i just brushed off the need to eat..but i didnt expect that i would be awake till 7.30 am..well, while being 'zombified', i cant study (im gonna have my final exam soon! dang!) so i just occupied myself with some games and when i was too tired, i just listened to songs..the last song was Baby Good Night..and this is the beginning of the real story that i wanna tell ya guys is..well..


last night (or is it this morning?), i dreamed of top and g-dragon..yes..GTOP! hehehe well, they were not exactly in the same dream..it was two different dreams..first was TOP and the next one was GD..it was nice..and..shall i say, it got me thinking all day? hahahah ok..i might not remember perfectly but i'll just write the bits and pieces of the dream..the scenes that actually stick in my mind, okay? so there will be a lot of 'i think', 'maybe', 'i guess' etc..please dont be annoyed..hahaha


well gonna make myself comfort to write this..buckle up people! aahahah


for the first dream, it was something like music video(mv) in a seductive way(?)..it was something like the baby good night mv..hahaha..ok..it started off by me, getting a phone call..i think i was from top..oh~ only God knows how sexy his voice was..hahaha he was asking me out..*need i remind you guys, everything was happening very slowly..i mean..in slow mo..like in the mv..* after that, i saw him driving..so i bet i was on the passenger seat next to him..he was so hot with his platinum hair~ hehehe..so..i was wearing this black dress just like audrey hepburn's..my wavy hair was left loose to the side(this must be in coz i bought this new hair product! lol)..and i guess we went for a dinner? then we arrived back at my house..i went inside and not sure where he was that time and thought he should have gone back..so, i went up to my room, taking my sweet time thinking bout him..so i decided to shower..before (or during) going in, i got a phone call..it's from top..i think he was saying something like "can i come in?" in a very3 sexy way..i was like..smiling..and agreed to it..(i guess he had the copy my house keys..) i went to bath..so inside my bathroom got this blurry divider or sliding door or something..while i was showering, i heard footsteps..and then the door opened slowly..through the blurry sliding door, i saw this figure..and definitely it's TOP's..


well..it ended there..dont ask me to tell you further about this! coz it ended right there! lol even if it ended just like that, we all know where it will lead us to, right? hahaha this dream was actually more detail but i think i dont have to write everything..you know the drill..hahaha 

then i was awake by i dont know what..then i went back to sleep..and got another dream which this time, it was GD inside it..


it started off by me and gd went to a hypermarket..we're a couple for sure..he was so cute with his new hairstyle..i held on to his arms while he's pushing the trolley..we talked, laughed..he put his arm around my shoulder..sometimes waist..i rest my head on his shoulder and sometimes chest..such a cute couple..he just let me took everything i want but i was constantly asking him "is it okay?" i think i did asked him what meal should i cook for him..then suddenly, i saw a friend of mine..a lady of course..so i said to gd that i wanna talk with her for a second since it's been a long time since we last saw each other..so he said okay..well..it turns out to be longer than expected..while we ladies were talking and taking the things, i did turned around a few times to see gd..just to confirm he's there..hahaha then my friend said she's going to the register since she got all the things she wanted..i waved her goodbye..then i went to gd who's walking slowly behind..i saw him pout..when i talked to him, he just kept quiet..and still pouting..well, he said he sulked coz my friend 'borrowed' me too long..hehehe cute isnt he? and then he kept quiet and pout..i was trying so hard to make him happy again..i apologized, sweet talked, tickled him..but none of it worked..i even pout back at him..hahaha so when we're about to go to the register (in silent) which was straight ahead, i suddenly walked to the right..he was looking at me curiously..i saw him and stopped..i said "come on..come with me!" he made a very weird face, a confused face actually..seductively, i smirked and left him there..i walked to the..lingerie section..while making 'follow me' finger and smirked..he looked down and smiled shyly (actually the smirk face he always does)..i was already halfway to the section..i turned around to face him and still making the finger..he's shy but then, he obeyed..and so it ended there..hahahahaha

omg! what had happened to me? i mean..seeeeeee...i've dreaming 'these things'..though it doesnt go down to 'it'..but man! it's already..on the way to 'it'..hahaha i mean come on?! hahaha it's just isnt a good time to have wet dreams okay? almost that kinda dream, it's fine..just like these two..coz i got final exams to think about..*does it matter actually?* hahahaah it's TOP and GD for God sake! who doesnt want them in their dreams? especially 'that' kinda dream..hehehe TOP~  unffff! *oh, nasty mind of mine! lol*


fin


p/s : too much of gtop or what? if it goes down to 'it', i dont think i would write it here..i'll just keep it to myself..hahahaah but these dreams already keep me thinking bout it all day..darn! lol

[HQ] Big Bang Performance SES Parody

omg! cross dress?? they are sooooo cutttteeee!!!!! arent theyyyyy???????????????????????? weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~

fin

p/s : taeyang looks the cutest..sorry top..lol

TOP "2 faces" BIG BANG

it's just a funny clip about him..awww~ he's darn cute! lol


fin


p/s : the face and the attitude so contravene..hahaha

baby good night TOP gifs ^____^

some of the gifs i took from tumblr..credits to 180888..heheh

   

    

 i love this one the most..hehehehe

all that i can say is that he looks so fine, manly and sexy but with the sense of class and elegance..well, he turns me on with style baby! hahaha no kidding..if the vulgar version of this mv releases, i might as well..urmm..idk..gone crazy? lol 

fin

p/s : as happy as a cow! and horny too!! lol kidding..hahaha well who doesnt? ^___^

GD&TOP - Baby Good Night M/V

omg! it's finally out!! OMG!! TOP IS SOOOOOO SEEEXXXXYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! i might just die right now..in extreme happiness..hahahaah omg...omg..OMG!!!! hahaahah i cant stop replaying this mv..like seriously..and shrieeekkkk everytime..oh gosh..hahaahah PEOPLE PLEASE WATCH THISSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

loving both hairstyles..looks more matured..but playful at times..people said this mv's concept is something like sexual frustration..well..kinda..hahaha but pure hotness..gd looks so adorable in this mv..top, the main man in this mv somehow looks so sexy..especially the part with strawberry and wine..hahaha the snake part? urmmm..no comment..hahahaha oh gosh..i wish i could be the girl..hahahah kidding..not pretty enough..hahaha still..this is a very sexy piece made by yg..lol

fin

p/s : yg is so great in making mvs..im gonna dream of them two tonight..and..urmm..nevermind..hehehe