Bruno Mars - Grenade [Official Music Video]

im currently in love with this song

"you know i'd do everything for ya"
"but you wont do the same"

aint that sad?

pity him
^__^

fin

p/s : he's not handsome but he has a great voice

might as well buy his album

coz he's hot and you're not

ze eyes! ze brows! aaaaa~~ *melting* 

finally

ok..finally ive change the setting to a new one..and im loving it..weee~ ok..done.. :D


gonna go to bed now..planning to wake up early tomorrow..for no reason..lol..which i know it will be hard..lol..oh im such a heavy sleeper..and im so hard to get up..ok..so..wateva..daaa~~

fin


p/s : hope to dream of tabi~ wee~

aww~ look at him sleep..so adorable..ok..daesung's cute too..smiling so brightly..aww~~ tabi~~

pics of him and others sleeping..click here.. weeee~ arent they cute! ok NITES READERS!!

i.am.so.hopeless.

sorry. the pic is so huge. but. aww. aint he look adorable? lol

it's friggin 3 am and im still awake..i dunno why..but i am..i just finish watching the social network..it was fine..not to say real good..but it's fine..i like the friend of mark zucker-wateva shit his name is..eduardo..i think..he looks handsome..the soon gonna be spiderman..heheheh ok..that's about it..

oh yeah..been in tira's place like for days..no internet..so i was kinda froze for a while..but still..it's for the sake of completing the text preparation for oral submission..which..i didnt finish it yet..lol well..i think..ill finish it tomorrow morning..ill try..somehow..

thanks tira for the hospitality..sorry if im a burden..and being quite a useless person..ok so you said, im just like tabi..so..urmm..lazy..and pretty much a burden to others..hahaha but he's cute..me too..*i guess* lol being like tabi is fun..but..other people will feel heavy..lol well..thanks so much and sorry again..but if we have time..i'll invade your house again..

tomorrow im gonna accompany tira since it's gnr day for her..as in guns and roses..hehehe so..ok..mybe i'll get myself something too..

fin

p/s : im gonna go to sleep now..and I WANT GD AND TOP'S HIGH HIGH ALBUM!! like now!!!

am i confusing you guys?

i love this man here so badly

well..i dont know why but recently everyone is asking the same question which is "are you in a relationship with someone?" or alternatively "do you currently have a bf? coz u seems like one!" lol even my housemate asked me whether im having a scandal or what..ok..people..listen up..listen it good ok?? IM SINGLE and available..for God sake, where did you guys get those silly ideas? hello~!! me?? having someone? are you blind? hahah me, like this, wont get anyone in the near future..and i dont even care bout it..people said my tweets and statuses give them some curiosity about my relationship status..well, this may be funny but seriously, who would actually want me? hahaha ok whatever..

or..is it..maybe..too much of tabi? there were many tweets that i wrote were on him..well..who else? i mean, im into him and no one else, for now..so..dont worry peeps..there's nothing to worry about..it's only tabi..and he isnt my real bf..*wishing he is! :p* well..i just dont know what to say..or maybe im too good with words..but, i cant get any happier when i see him or his voice..like seriously..he makes me fly, everytime..as if like his my man! he drives me insane! :D so..those words naturally came up like that..what should i do? im in love with him, wishing him to be mine which is so impossible..even in thousand years, i wont get him..

and peeps..at least, give me some space to feel like i have someone..though it's just for a celebrity..which again, i wanna emphasize, i wont get him..i just wanna have fun with myself, loving someone..ok..i admit it..I LOVE HIM! I'M REALLY IN LOVE WITH CHOI SEUNG HYUN! but at least i know my limitations..i mean..i know the real fact..he's a celeb..but at least my imaginations can run wild since it's just a fantasy..i could love him as much as i could, hate him as much as i want, or imagine whatever i want..but, i wont go to that extent, you know, fantasizing those dirty things..hahahah..well, if i did, you guys wont know right? lol

thus, it's much much MUCH better like this!

by the way, i think TOP is building up his body..somehow, i think, he has 6 packs now..i mean he looks tough..i mean the body..his chest looks..urmm..stronger? broader? lol this is latest pic..click here..and this is somewhere mid this year..click here..oh gosh! he looks hot in suits..i just cant get enough of him! i might as well wanna eat him alive! lol well..i think he tries to become a bit buffy and he did look like that, a bit after the movie 71:into the fire..well..can i make him as my pillow? pleaaassssseeee?? hahahaha! well, it's a bonus for him..sexy eyes, voice and body! perfecto! lol

fin

p/s : listening + singing OH YEAH by GTOP ft BOM.. oh! so! addicted! :D

pressured!

oh gosh..mama baru call tadi and we're talking fine until kluar topic pasal si hamba Allah tu..damn! bende dah lama kot..mama saja je cakap yang die still suka aku..wtf? ok fine..pastu mama kt jangan sampai die buat semayang hajat ke istiharah ke..sudahlah..aperkah?? he wont do it pon..takkan la desperate sangat? i mean come on..aku cakap kat mama, kalau betul die suke, cakap je la, be frank with me..although i might just laugh my ass off at him..but still..kalau suke cakap..pe hal sampai nak semayang2, nak doa2 plak? mula2 mama trigger sket2 je..pstu mama kt doa orang teraniaya selalu nya termakbul..apekah teraniaya? mama kata aku banyak mainkan hati die..but mama bukan nye tau the truth pon..aku tak abes2 cakap yang since die tengok gambar aku n abang tu die start menjauh..it's not my fault pon..why didnt he ask me at the first place? n mama kt mungkin die tengok aku ni bukan league die, cam aku nie terlampau high maintaince sampai mungkin die x brani nak approach..aper lak? aper kaitan? aku cam senang..kalau suke cakap je..then i'll think over on what to respond to it..tapi paling terok time last2 sebelum tutup hp adalah mama x abes2 surh aku beware, tkot2 die semayang n doa2..aku cam..xyah ngarut..ok..clearly suara aku dah lain, dah nampak aku bengang..agak2 la..he wont go to that extend..as if takde pompuan lain dalam dunia nie..n mama made it like aku pon dah takde choice lain melainkan laki tu sorang..oh gosh! come on..seriously, im depressed..dah takde mood gile..rasa cam nak jerit je..tapi nanti housemates kata aku gile plak..and now, im listening to metalingus, aku ikut je die jerit..come on ma, dont do this to me..u know mother's punya doa will work everytime..and i dont want it to happen..im sick of all the things related to him..past is past la..dah malas dah kot..die pon dah tak anggap nie kawan die dah silap2..and dunia nie penuh lagi laki lain..and issue 'i love you tabi' tu bukannye nak permainkan die, yang aku sndri pon tak tau pe yang ad kat dalam hati die tu..lantak la..it isnt suppose to be an issue pon, i mean me and him dah totally over pon as a friend..pe pasal lak die nak segala semayang2 tu sume semata2 nak dapatkan aku? sebab malu nak confess? come on! kata anak jantan, kalau suka cakap je la..yer, aku kasar n yer ak ad possibility akan gelakkan kau kalau kau confess kat aku..but aku ada hati n perasaan which aku takkan nak malukan or jatuhkan maruah kau tak tentu pasal..be a man..but, i said these coz moms normally have instincts..so, kalau betul instinct mama tu, aku mau kau jadi jantan la..ngaku je..aku tak nak jadi straightforward and ask you whether or not kau penah suka aku..nanti confirm salah satu punya maruah akan jatuh..tapi aku seriously pressured when mama said there's possibilities that he does those prayers and all which aku pikir, bukannye sampai tahap nak kawin pon sampai perlu camtu..Ya Allah, Kau ampunilah dosa aku yang mungkin aku telah bercakap kasar/tinggikan suara kat mama which im not intended to pon..aku just terlampau pressure dengan situasi nie yang sepatotnye tak perlu timbul pon at the first place..semoga Allah mengampuni aku..amin..

fin

p/s : im so fucked up! in need of tabi presto!

i'm tryna

hey peeps! remember the post i wrote about TOP's singing..cant remember? ok, click here..well..the 2nd video, i was searching like hell for the song he sang in that video..well, finally i found it thanks to beibi552 (youtube) for giving me the title and the singer..well, when i try to hear the full song by the original singer, i think TOP sang better! like seriously..though his pronounciation is quite funny..but maybe because TOP has a deep voice..but both were ok..but right now, this song is one of the songs im addicted to..gosh! lol i wish i could hear TOP singing it in full..hehehe

well, you can hear it full here by the original singer, omarion..

I'm Tryna lyrics

[Omarion Talking:]
Damn, I really messed up this time
But Imma make it up to you
Listen

[1st Verse:]
Seems just like the other day
you were my woman
Shopping malls and holidays
couldn't tell us nothing
Now your gone away and I'm
still tryna deny it
But I'm tired from this pain
and I just can't hide it

[Hook:]
Its like oohoohoohoohooh
I just can't get over you
Girl oohoohoohoohooh
It feels like I caught the flu
Girl I'm sick from all these lies and these games
And I'm sick from being the reason we turned out this way

[Chorus:]
I'm tryna act like I don't wanna be with you
Like I would be OKAY
If you just walked away
I'm tryna act like I don't wanna see you
Like you were just a face
I'll forget you in a day
I'm tryna act like I can do without feeling on your booty
Find another ghetto cutie
To do me like you do me yeah yeah
But I'm just so addicted to you
Imma try but I can't
Cuz your all I'm tryna do

[2nd Verse:]
See ya here and there with your friends
And I start the fronting
Act like I been doing my thing
I don't need your loving
But you see it in my eyes
Girl something just ain't right
Since we don't share this bed no more
I can't sleep at night

[Hook:]
Its like oohoohoohoohooh
I just can't get over you
Girl oohoohoohoohooh
Feel like I caught the flu
Girl I'm sick from all these lies and these games
And I'm sick from being the reason we turned out this way

[Chorus:]
I'm tryna act like I don't wanna be with you (oohoooh)
Like I would be OKAY (be OKAY)
If you just walked away (walked away)
I'm tryna act like I don't wanna see you (I don't wanna see you baby)
Like you were just a face
I'll forget you in a day
I'm tryna act like I can do without feeling on your booty (oh ho)
Find another ghetto cutie
To do me like you do me yeah yeah
But I'm just so addicted to you
Imma try (oh) but I can't
Cuz your all I'm tryna do

[Bridge:]
Baby I know
Guess I'm changing out the door (Can't play it off like I'm so cool)
Girl you know I'm going straight out my mind
I can't stop thinking bout the things we did and the way we kissed
I know it ain't right playing like you ain't my time girl
Tryna be a playa got me acting like I

[Chorus:]
Like I don't wanna be with you
Like I would be OKAY (like I would never be OKAY no)
If you just walked away
I'm tryna act like I don't wanna see you (but you know I wanna see you baby yea)
Like you were just a face
I'll forget you in a day (but I'll neva forget you girl)
I'm tryna act like I can do without (oh oh) feeling on your booty (booty)
Find another ghetto cutie (cutie)
To do me like you do me (do me yeah)
But I'm just so addicted to you
Imma try but I can't
Cuz your all I'm tryna do

I'm not tryna act, no
I'm not tryna act like that no more (oh)
'Cause I never had it, girl
I never had it like this before
No, I'm not tryna change,
No, I'm not tryna change this all for you (I'm not tryna change it, baby)
Imma do everything I can 'cause you all I'm tryna do

I'm not tryna act, no
I'm not tryna act like that no more (oh)
'Cause I never had it, girl
I never had it like this before
No, I'm not tryna change,
No, I'm not tryna change this all for you
Imma do everything I can 'cause you all I'm tryna do

well, i did sang this song in class this afternoon..then farah was like wondering what song did i sang..and i realized myself that i'm smiling constantly..actually i was reminiscing the way TOP sang this song..it was funny since taeyang was dancing around him..lol and this song is like so awww~~ lol

fin

p/s : But I'm just so addicted to you..Imma try but I can't..Cuz your all I'm tryna do..

tira, the little miss vanity dreamed something cute..

it happened like days ago..sorry i'm updating it a bit late..since i didnt have the 'feel' to write..

Tira dreamed of her taeyang and me and top! well..as usual, like i remembered..she said, me and her were bout to go to a coffee house or something..the main thing was we're about to chill out and have some coffee..and dear top and taeyang (YB) will join us too..bla bla bla..bla bla bla..the next thing, all four of us were there..we sat on the same table..so MR HOT BOD, TAEYANG is with MS HOT STUFF, TIRA on one corner..and THE HOT MESS *actually just mess* ME with MR SEXY EYES, TOP is on the other..

so, tira said YB and her were like talking and..playing each other's fingers.. -___-?? taeyang seemed to not make eye contact at all with her, she said..they're both too shy i guess..but aawwwww~~ aint that cute? like..fer sure there's 'sneak peeks' between them..i wonder if i did caught them off guard and annoyed/teased them? lol but anyways, tira said, YB's smile was so cute~~ awww~~ i'm sure it's like a cute-shy-ish smile..awwww~ and she said YB's eyes were like so cute, almost closed, well his has so small and cute eyes..especially when he smiles *eyes closed*..awww~~ heheheh ^_____^

well..me..and my tabi..hahahah..omg..i think it's funny..but, first off, it's tira's dream, not mine and i somehow like it but i think..lol *can i fangirling now? before i tell ya guys the my part of the story? ok? heeeeeeee~~!!! aaaaaa~~!!! heheheeheheh!! ok, done* now back to me and top's part..

well..as i've said earlier, we (me and top) werent that far from them (tira and YB)..well, actually, we're infront of them..so tira said, while she was talking to YB, she glanced/looked at us..oh gosh! tira, do you have to? like seriously? lol so..then..she saw us..being too close..i mean ssoooo close..lol tira, are we like cuddling or what? hehehe so she said top was like whispering some things to me..and his deep voice could be heard by them..oh gosh! *weeee~ :D* and then she said top smiled so hotly and im with this shy smile thing..hahaha i guess i was too drawn..lol well, the best part is TOP KISSED ME ON THE CHEEK! omg! *officially fangirling then, fainted and alive and continue writing this post!* she said he did it just like in guns and roses' mv - november rain where the vocalist, axl kissed his wife's cheek in a bar while they hanged out with friends..then they get physical..lol oh gosh! tira, did i? and top? hahahah though im praying for something more, i mean lip kiss..or something..lol..omg! sorry tira..if so, you can definitely say "you two, get a room!" to me in that dream or "dream it yourself!" in reality..i wont mind..lol being a good friend, i dont wanna disgust you..lol

oh Lord..though it's tira's dream, im the one who's getting the excitement..sorry tira..myb you and YB should lessen the shyness..and pass it to me and top..hahaha but then..i was so shy when tira told me all these since my imaginations ran wild..my, my..lol but tira said, we were cute in that dream..so close and romantic i guess..awww~~ aint that good? i wish i could witness it myself..lol well..the next day, i think i just 'continued' the dream but i cant remember it..lol

anyways..thanks tira deary..for having that dream..and sorry for overshadowing..hahaha well..may it please dear, have some more of these dreams..and do tell me about it..lol gosh! i should just dream it myself..rather than asking people to do it for me! wth? it's for her own benefit too, since YB did appeared and played 'finger game' with her..lol

fin

p/s : addicted to digital bounce by se7en feat my dear top.. ^__^

choi top choi top choi top ^ x ^

ok..this is his new hairstyle..for the launching of the GD&TOP album..omg..i love it..i mean the hair..and him..

urrmmm..ok..so you did broke my heart last night..and im mad..but..i cant stay mad for long..coz..i love you..so much..so next time..play nice..ok?? hehehe dont break my fragile heart again.. ;)

the mad thing, i think it just happened..the timing wasnt right..you see..i was depressed bout something and still..and then you did what you did..which made me cried..* ok, i cried for celebs or whoever i admire like all the time..if they broke my heart..thus, i am a crybaby.. :D *

you know, i almost hated you for real..but mianhaeyo..i was being too emotional..deep down inside, im still loving you..so so much..and today, you did made me happy..a bit..but i hope for more happiness from you soon..sorry for being too emotional..hehehe saranghaeyo oppa!

and one more thing..lately, ive been following tira's disease of stutter..hahaha example..i wanna say 'laki aku' or in english means 'my man'..but instead, i said 'lelaki aku' which means the same as 'my man' or even 'my men'..hahaha isnt that weird? hence, me and tira had this 'malay suffixes and prefixes' all jumbled up..i think, we should go back to school and learn malay language..oh im embarrassed..im bad both malay and english..i just wanna curled up like a ball and hide my face now..or should i just hide my face into tabi's chest?? lol

fin..

p/s : i'll keep wishing to have someone like you..or maybe just you..lol

: this post looks like im talking to him right? yeah i know..im insane..and topsessed.. -__-" but what am i supposed to do? i should find a real bf..naaahhh..TOP IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME..lol

GD&TOP - HIGH HIGH MV

THE LATEST MV BY G-DRAGON N TOP! WOOOOHHHOOOOOO!! IM SO HIGH BABY!! SO FLYYY!!!

video credits to BIGBANG YOUTUBE CHANNEL.

fin

p/s : this is HOT!!!!

invincible

hey peeps..well this post is for a certain someone..

hey you! i wanna say thanks for that one time, you recommended me to listen to invincible by muse..it's a good song..but hey! what you did earlier, really made me invincible..to you..you can say hi to both of us but instead, you've said it to her, only..and not just that, you didnt even look at me..through the whole conversation..ok..i thought we're friends..at least, look at me and smile..it's so obvious..like duhhh~ i was there, right next to her, and you treated me like im not exist..ok..im not jealous, but we're friends too, right? if you still consider me as one..but..whatever..maybe i am invincible..and it's good..since..one of the aim i've made before entering this university is being invincible..so, i've clearly made it..though if it's only to you..whatever..i dont give a damn, no more..

fin

p/s : sleepy..and tomorrow's tort midterm..wish me luck peeps..!! oh im hungry too..

an s class for my next birthday?

welllll~~ the title is only to grab your attention..hahaha ok..actually..last two days..dad, bro and me had a meeting/discussion on the new projects we're going to handle..so..while discussing about that..suddenly..dad said something..he sheepishly smile and said "if we got these(the jobs), i might as well but an s class..but that's not for me..i'll give it to you ..*while looking at me*"..well..who knows? it may come true..right? amin..

but naaah~ im into mini cooper..or..volkswagen..they are classic..vintage..and cute! ^_____^

but, like what my bro said..we can never fit in these cars..i mean..they are too small..lol..ok..fine then..COME HERE HUMMER! lol

fin

p/s : mere saying..but if it becomes reality, alhamdulillah..hahaha

puppy or kitty?

hehehe..well, i guess i know the reason why im depressed..im lacking off my tabi 'dosage'! lol well..this whole week, i was caught up with works so i didnt have the time to check out on TOP much..last night has made me alive..hahaha..coz..finally i got the time to see his new photos, which i was shocked, since there are so many new news that i dont know..lol ok..then, i was like so ecstatic to come back to malacca, and here i am..hehehe..now, finally, i get my TOP's vibes back..oh, it felt so good..hahahah

well..i always thought TOP's face is like a puppy..so cute~~ but this pic..it makes him looks like a kitty now!! as said by little miss vanity *who thought it's adorable for me to call TOP as tabi..lol*, he looks like the cat in shrek..here's the pic..hehehe..

arent they the same?? the eyes~~ so cuttteee~~~ heheheeh i wanna kiss him and the kitty!! but more to the kitty since that kitty looks cuter! hahaha

fin

p/s : officially happy! for now! weee~

KL..tell me goodbye..

ok..to be frank..i'm so stressed out this whole week of midterm break..i know, i am supposed to be happy, cheery but..no..im all stressed and depressed and gloom..i was so caught up with the works..the assignments..the paperworks given by my dad..and other business matters..well, dear qiena, being me is not that easy and as carefree as u think dear..i may look like im having fun, travelling and stuff, but trust me, it's not like what u see..it's beyond that..

sorry tira coz u have to layan rungutan ak smlm..i just..i didnt know what else to do..n u're the only one yg ad..yakni sbb kte tgh on9..hahah

assignments..ok..it's fair..everyone has to do it..and im sorry if my works didnt reach your expectations farah, ida and tira..so sorry bout that..i'll try to do better..i promise..

then comes the paperworks..it's hard coz we are dealing with important people..not students or kids or whoever..these people are with the dato' ships and wateva ships, boats, canoes..lol so, everything must be perfect..even a slight error like one digit or word salah, habis! im dead..not just me, my whole co's dead..ok...takde la..not really dead..but just susah la..takot misunderstanding pulak..basically, i dont think im cut out for this..for now..but im learning..as fast as i could..

then..there's these discussions about the new projects and so on..alhamdulillah..things are getting better..more jobs coming in..but..more worries and headaches too..dengan modal nye..pekerja nye mana nak cari..and..the jobs..isnt gonna be near anymore..banyaknya ke arah utara..well..u see..i dont know..but there are possibilities that, if we really got the jobs and all, and if more n more jobs coming in from utara in the near future, aku maybe kene move to utara, kedah..and..yer, bak kata abang, jadilah republican of paddy field..lol it's funny..but when i think about it..aku sangat2 depressed..not just coz it got nothing there, but coz it's far and all i can say is "there goes my life!" so now..im thinking hard about this..but ive clearly expressed to mama and abah that i wont agree to the moving thing..i wanna stay in kl..mama kinda agreed to that..and they will think about it..abang agreed to my objection since we still have jobs in kl..but we'll figure it out somehow..

oh and im very2 sorry to ida farah n lisa for not joining u gurls..hangouts and stuff..im so so busy..seriously im not lying..but still, im so so sorry..and..if the moving thing is really happening, i guess, impian untuk hangout dengan korang lagi harapan la kot..memang just kat melaka je la we can go out..

omg..i dont wanna crack my head on these..it's just not the time for me to think about all these..but clearly im unhappy..n worry..as things wont go as easy..i dont know..i dont even know what to think..these things keep playing in my head..but the moving thing, i've pushed it far behind, it's in the back of my mind now..but still, i fell uneasy..Ya Allah, minta dijauhkan la apa2 yang tak patot dari fikiran aku..prior kan pe yang penting dulu..amin..

and u know..sometimes, i thought im not like other average teens yang boleh lepak dengan kawan2, having fun..kata pon stay kat kl kan? but..aku..duduk je kat kl..tapi..either stuck kat rumah handling business matters..or keluar, tapi either dengan abang or abah, yakni tengok employees, jumpa clients, uruskan anything related to our business..i am happy and really grateful to Allah for what i have now, in the past and will have in the future..but like what abang and i had discussed yesterday, he said "if we didnt struggle or work hard, we wont be able to live like this..we may not be luxurious but at least we never lack of money..it's just enough to support a family.." yes sir..affirmative..

and now..i think..we siblings have grown up and matured..though we are still incapable of taking over the family business but we're learning..and for me, we're learning from the bests - everyone..we dont really have the experience but we're gaining it slowly..and that im grateful..oh yes, yesterday we went to KLCC..settling some things..we went by burberry then COACH..we thought of, if we have the money, we gonna shop to those boutiques..abang will definitely buy a bag or wallet from the burberry..and i said, mama will definitely want a coach..she did say it to me once, that if abang or me, dah kerja one day, she wants a coach handbag for her birthday..which at first i think it was impossible..but aku just cakap, insyaAllah i will get it for her..one day..for sure..and when i said these to abang, he said, "insyaAllah..kalau projects nie sume jalan smoothly, jangan kata satu, kite bawak je die datang kedai nie, beli semua yang die nak..janji everyone's happy! " i cant say anything but instead, i just smiled..hoping for it to come true..insyaAllah..i'll pray for it..for everything..i dont want to be like those people yang kaya, tapi tak bahagia..unhappy je memanjang..i want to have a happy family..just that..takde duit pon it's ok..we can still smile happily without any worries..

omg..im babbling right? well..this is the only place to express all my feelings..but sorry la if this seems so, urmm..annoying..but suke ati aku la..blog aku! lol

fin

p/s : again..sorry sangat ida farah lisa coz aku tak penah hangout ngan korang kat kl..but i hope korang faham my situation..

little miss vanity said im innovative with names..

wanna know why? coz i've been creating names using my or tira's name with singers' names..

TIRA

tira + axl = tiraxl

tira + slash = tirash ( = tira + ashaari )

tira + taeyang = tiyang (or tiang? lol )

tira + daesung = tirasung / tisung

daesung + tira = daera

taeyang + tira = taera *taera rose?*

g-dragon + tira = g-tiragon / g-tragon

*your name is so easy to match with others'..so jealous..hahahah*

MANDY

mandy + top = mantop *lol*

top + mandy = tody ? *lmao*

seung hyun + mandy = seung di ? *sounds like seung ri! lol*

taeyang + mandy = taedy *teddy!!*

jiyong + mandy = jidy *sound like gd! lol*

mandy + g-dragon = magon? man dragon? lol

*well, i cant create with my name much..quite hard..hehehe*

fin

p/s : weeee~~

megalicious megaton

THE MEGATON

see the thickness..oh juiciness..yummy~~!!

yellloooowwww peeepss~~!! well, on monday, finally i had the BIGGEST BURGER OF MY LIFE..i mean it's EFFIN HUGE! it scares the hell of me..i mean, still..it still scares me..coz it huge..!! thanks to my dear bro for treating me that burger..oh yes..it's called MEGATON..n it's so cheap! less than RM20!! so, for malaysian, specifically KUALA LUMPUR-ians..u guys HAVE TO TRY THIS! and also REAL EATERS & FOOD APPRECIATORS! u guys too! hehehe it's in Ampang in a restaurant called GERMAN DELI imbiss..the foods there are in big portions..for those with small stomach, buzz off..hahaha naahh..im just kidding..but seriously, i was almost full when i just only ate half of it..try to finish it..it ended up by me eating only the patty..i did said to my bro that i wont eat the megaton again..enough..once is enough..we agreed on one thing..ONLY EAT IT IF YOU ARE REALLY3, EXTREMELY HUNGRY! *nodding* hehehe

fin

p/s : i wanna try the spaghetti..i bet it will be so bigggggg toooooo...hehehee THX ABANG! LOVE YA!

me, 'eating' another half of the megaton..God damn it's huge!

the yellow thing

well, aint that cute people? ups..pardon me..hello good people of the world..well today, my post is actually connected to the previous one..which is about the thing my brother bought me for my birthday..heheh and this is it..the cow...the cute lil cow..yes..hehehe a five inch tall, annoyingly squeaky, with a big belly but so so SO CUTE! though i know i wont cost him much, but i think it's cute and CUTE! thx so much old brother..you know me well..hehehe..great! since i love cows, he said "how bout start collecting cow items?" NAAAAHHH!! no way..too many cows will freak me out..i guess..lol anyways..this thing is so cute..plus..he said..it can be stick on the car dashboard..so whenever im bored or in need of horns, just squeeze this thing..lol but for me, i take it more as an anti-depressant thing..ya know..when im stress or anything, i'll just squeeze it! hehehehe aww..poor lil cow-squeeky thing..lol..mama almost get mad and already annoyed since i cant stop squeezing it..it's so fun..but annoying..lol..

fin

p/s : tira! your answers were WRONG! lol..well..take a guess on what i'll give ya for your bday..hint : it's imported *i guess*..heheheheh well, that's not really a hint..right?

hints that arent helping!

this evening, my brother called me..he said something about him n mama went out for shopping..but after they went back, mama went out again but this time with my dad for another round of shopping spree..gosh mama! such a big spender she is..lol

ok..that's beside the point..the main story is..my brother said he bought me something..for my birthday..he said it's yellow..but there's lil bit of black, grey etc..and it's SQUEAKY! at first, i was thinking the rubber duck..but i dont think so since it sounded different..oh gosh! im curious..!!

but the thing is..mama supported him on being the 'item' for me..oh gosh! now im even more curious! i just cant wait to go home and see what's the thing..

and just now..dad blurted that mama bought me a handbag or something..oh no! i dont wear handbags! puhhhllleaaaasssssseeeeeee!!! mama is forcing me with all these stuff but i wanna take it slow..gosh! can someone please understand me? please..i dont ask for much..i just wanna be myself..someday i'll be a 'grace kelly'..but not now..

fin

p/s : i'll update about the 'thing' as soon as possible..

and who said TOP cant sing?

hear him sing..gosh..his voice..so..tempting..so..alluring..coz it's so..deep..and..manly..unnfff...

i love this part the most..pardon taeyang on becoming top's personal background dancer..lol but tira..see taeyang's shirt..it's gun n roses! lol OH I LOVE HIM SINGING THIS SONG!

actually, what song is this? oh..im so..in love with his voice..singing this song..owhh..just like tira said.."i wanna make love with his voice!" though tira meant axl's (gnr) voice..but yeah..

I WANNA MAKE LOVE WITH HIS VOICE..hahaha..

fin

p/s : he should try singing more..

what i wanna be, when i was young..

"i dont feel happy..i am all so sappy..dont be like me..it is scary..like living in solitary.."

well this is what i feel right now..i dont know why..coz since morning till the evening, i was fine..i mean, i was laughing with my friends and so..then..in a flick..i went all sappy..maybe coz the song i heard in farah's car..and..the fact that it's raining..it compliments well with the mood..

well..put that aside..my post for today..after a few days since the last post..is this..well..i wanna tell ya guys a secret..maybe..ya guys think i'm faking it..but..got to tell ya, i wont lie if im in a not-so-good mood..and a secret wont actually stay that long..somehow a person will spill it someday..whether the owner of the secret, or it emerge to other people's ear itself..oh did i make it sound so serious? lol well..here it goes..WHEN I WAS YOUNG..I USED TO..WANNA BE A RAPPER..there i said it! now, i could see some of ya guys making weird faces, gestures and scratches..

well..again..im not lying to ya..it's not about TOP and his devotion to rap, hip hop music..no no no..let me tell ya the real story..i have a brother who loves rnb and hip hop music..so..when i was like this lil kid..he's been giving me these kinda songs to listen to..well actually, i've been hearing his songs though i didnt even know what it meant..he listens to bone thugs and harmony, fat joe, fabulous, jay z, p diddy of course, notorious B.I.G and some other rappers too..even the underground rappers..he even listens to chinese rappers like LMF..well..practically so did i..since i've been following whatever he listens to, clothings and stuff..yes..i wore and still wearing baggy shirts and jeans..i even lowered my jeans..lol it's funny but my brother is my biggest influence..and he likes it when i followed him..but now, he asked me to lessen the guys kinda thing and more to lady like..lol

so, i think when i was in elementary school..i used to try to rap..just following the words of the lyrics..though it's kinda funny since, im not that good in english that time..but still, i copied it..i know..it must sounded so horrible..lol..then..as i grow older..like..between the end of elementary life to high school life..i kinda know what's rap..the words..and stuff..starting to understand the meanings too..and im into cornrows..dreadlocks..those kinda things..hehehe..which i did the hairstyles..hehehe

and from that..i start to rap, though it's below than mediocre..lol..i mean like..yeah, for me..i think..it's freestyle..but i only did it for a few lines..and i tried to make it as rhythmic as possible..ehehe..but im more to just use the rap existed in a song..following the flow..singing and rapping..and normally i just do it to myself..i dont do it publicly..hehehe afraid of embarrassment, i supposed..well..somehow..i do came up with a few lines and put it somewhere for status..like the ones up here..i put it up as my fb status and ym too..hehehe by writing it and posting it as status, i'll have the positive feeling..but rapping it, literally..oh gosh..DUN WANNA!

"now i feel a bit of happiness in me..coz mama called maybe..the sadness fly free..like a bee..oh em gee..dont sting me..it's not worthy..like seriously..trust me.."

hehehe..that's how i feel now..heheh..n yeah..it's bad right? lol at least..i've tried..hehehe well..back to the story..i even tried to compose in malay..which sounded so "jiwang"..or too romantic? lol..sometimes, i think i composed it so gibberish-ly..which i dont know..hahahah i just wanna laugh at it..like this one..the one above this paragraph..i think it's totally a crap..gibberish..lol

well..im just doing this for fun..so i dont mind if it's stink or sucks or whatever ya guys wanna put it as..but im open to any criticism! hehehe well..im not good with words..so i dont expect much..it's not like im a pro or something..hehehe if i am, i'll so happy..i guess..hehehe well..like i said..i used to dream on becoming a rapper..which i doubt would be possible..lol but somehow, the dream seems to relive back in me..lol but..again..i wont do it publicly..unless..writing it..a few lines..then, that's it..it's good enough to rap others' words in their own songs..rather than me, composing and trying to use other people's song to go with the words..it will sound bad..horrible..extremely low than mediocre..lol

yeah..that's bout it yo..and i think..i should get a notebook to keep those words of mine..so that it can be my reminiscents..right?

fin

p/s : listening to TOP's 'to act as if nothing's wrong' (repeating it again and again) while writing this post..it inspires me..a lot..lol

chullo

well..recently..i've been wearing my chullo whenever im at home..what's a chullo? chullo, based on wikipedia,

"is a style of hat with earflaps made from vicuña, alpaca, llama or sheep's wool,^[1]. Alpaca has insulating wool-like qualities that help to insulate its wearer from the harsh elements in the Andean Mountain region. Chullos often have ear-flaps that can be tied under the chin, to further warm the wearer's head.

Chullos have been used in the Andean Mountain region since pre-Hispanic times and wearing different types and colors has a significance among the Andean natives."

i dont even know why..but i like wearing it when im at home..but i only have one..and an old one..a black and white chullo..hehehe..maybe coz it's warm and comfy..and so, i did planned to buy some more of this chullo..suggestions? hehehe

this afternoon, i went to ain's house..she was shocked..i guess..seeing me wearing chullo..since malaysia's hot..and not many will wear chullos in malaysia..she said.."is this inspired by TOP or what? are you copying him? lol" well, lol..dear ain, im not..i love chullos since young..since i think it's cute! lol well..eventually, it just happened that TOP wore chullos too..but he's more to beanies that chullos..hehehe..so, here is a picture of him wearing a chullo..cute eyh? lol

but i like g-dragon's chullo better..since it's bigger and longer..i wanna search and buy that kind of chullos..

somehow, i kinda like beanies too..and big snow caps..like those that can cover till your eyes..but still..im sticking with chullos..since the pattern is always unique..and not many people will wear it, especially in malaysia..heheheh..I LOVE UNIQUENESS..heheheh

fin

p/s : where can i find them in cheaper price in malaysia?

Love Language

You say good morning, and good evening
The day is done, and you've come to find
The words are fleeting, I hear your quiet breathing
Is something wrong?

You come on two knees, with more than two needs
Finding that it's all too easy
To be helped and found
You slept and he said

(Chorus)
It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, to find your way home

Daylight's coming, the sun is blazing
New beginnings seep into you
But in the end it's distant shadows
That finally overwhelm your senses
And this time around
Is it love that you crown?
And this time around
You'll be more than who you are

(Chorus)
It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, to find your way home

[Guitar]
[Drums]

Whoa oh oh oh...
(Repeats)

Could you find yourself a way home? (4x)

(Chorus)
It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, (ohh) to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, (ohh) to find your way home

song title : peaches

band : new heights

isnt this cute? isnt this sweet? hell yeah! love doesnt have to be communicated with mouth..actions, writings are good enough to reach other people's heart..and that's why people said action speaks louder than words..because actions give more impact and everyone can understand what you are trying to tell rather than words that spoken may be vague and misunderstood..and can be lies..but people tend to think that to speak is the only communication there is..but this video proved us wrong..even people who are dumb or cant speak can communicate with normal people..

and love doesnt meant for normal human beings only..people with deaf, dumb etc problems are also human that can be love or be in love or to love another person..they are also normal human beings..and there are times that we can't actually find a word to say or a way to speak to a person..so,i think this video, besides the sweet thing, it actually makes us realize that everything is possible and a communication in any ways will reach the person's heart and understanding..

fin

p/s : as the owner of the video said : "There are moments in life when we feel a connection so deep words can hardly describe it. But how do we know that it's real?"

p/s : i sounded so serious..right? yeah..i just realized it though..lol and i think i'm talking crap..thank you mooting's written submission! you're officially making me, not me! as in me, me! ok whatever! lol

neyo - one in a million lyrics

Jet setter
Go getter
Nothing better
Call me Mr. been there done that
Top model chick to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few
But I've never met one like you

Been all over the world
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere
With a little bit of everyone
All the girls I've been with
Things I've seen it takes much to impress
But sure enough you go it makes your soul stand up from all the rest

I can be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about your look
Talking about I can't do it for you
But you can do it for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it
All we do is win baby

I could be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Baby you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

Timing girl
Only one in the world
Just one of a kind
She mine

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me
Baby (girl) you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

fin

p/s : wishing that someone could sing this for me..in a very honest and sincere kinda way..but i know it aint gonna be true..but just wishing.. :P

ciara - and i

"And I"

[verse 1]

I dont need me a basketball player

All I need is somebody thats down for me

And he dont have to have money

His love is just like honey

Its so sweet to me

He can have everything in this world

But he'll sacrafice it all for me

And I made up my mind

Im in love this time

And it feels so real

[Chorus]

And I

Know that he wont break my heart

And I

Know that we wont ever part

Its time, time for us to settle down

And I

Wanna be with him forever

[verse 2]

They can say that I am crazy

For makin him mah baby

But that's how it's gone be

See I done been through many changes

But this one I aint changing

It's gon' stay the same

I can have everything in this world

But I'll sacrafice it all for him

And I made up my mind

Im in love this time

And it feels so real

[Chorus]

[bridge]

I love you

And all of the things that you do

Oh baby please

I need you (I need you)

So believe me (I do)

I do (oOoOOo)

Cause I love you (I love you)

And every lil thing baby (you do)

No no OoO whooOooa OooOo

They don't know how I feel

Cause I know this is real

[Chorus 2x]

well..suddenly i missed this song..so i'm listening to it right now..repeating it again and again..oh i love this song..one of my fav rnb songs..hehehe the love is so..lovey dovey? lol it's like the lady really in love with the guy..she doesnt care about the wealth o anything else..just the love she desires..though in the video clip, the guy cheated on her..which is not a wise move..but i love the bodyguard..secretly in love with here..and a very nice gentleman..hehehe..well..yeah..that's about it..enjoy!

fin

p/s : it doesnt relate with anything or anyone okay? hahaha just wanted to listen to it..nothing more..nothing less.. ^___^

YAY! FINALLY!!

well..hello there peeps..remember my previous post saying that i wanted to buy something for myself for my bday? well..finally i've decided something n bought it..these are the things!

TOP's photo with original signature!!!!! OH EM GEEE!!!

a cute phone strap..it's TOP's name written in korean! my CHOI SEUNG HYUN~~ hehehehe

sorry the picture is like this..i cant rotate it..but still..I AM SOOOOO HAPPPPYYYYYYY!!!!

well actually i didnt plan on buying these..it's just that i opened ebay's website..and at first i didnt know what to search for..suddenly, big bang popped into my mind..mainly it's TOP..hehehe..so i went on searching..than this seller, is practically malaysian and the transaction is so much easier since, if he/she is an international seller, they might want to use paypal..and i dont have credit card..and eventually, the items of my seller sells are mostly on korean products especially related to celebs..she got big bang, snsd, suju n much more..so i was kinda attracted to her items..since it's not that costly..but actually bcoz she got quite a number of TOP's things..hehehe well..everything will be cheap for me if it's TOP's..hehehe

i really freaked out when i saw she's selling the TOP's photo with autograph..i thought it was a fake at first..then i emailed her asking bout this thing and other stuff..she's a very good seller..she literally explained everything with patience..suddenly..i just said to myself.."ok..just buy it.." lol and at the same time, i was aiming the phone strap too..thus..i bought them both..heheheheh the price? well..let it be my secret..hehehe..

so today..finally the things arrived..actually yesterday but i collected it just now, after class..i thought, it was kinda late..since the seller said she has sent it a few days ago using poslaju..but it's fine now..i am so so SO HAPPY! hehehe the things are in good shape..n the photo, the autograph is real people! i can see it's not printed and signed using a marker..n it's exactly like TOP's signature..so i'm very sure it's not fake..hehehe

well i guess..i maybe gonna buy some other things again from her..i've seen a few things that im interested in..but we'll see..ehehehe oh yeah! she is even selling something similar g-dragon's earrings..which caught my eyes..im waiting for her to sell maybe a clone to TOP's earrings..or rings..hehehe

fin weeeee~~~

p/s : relieved..and excited..hehehehe aiming for TOP's _____ next!

TOP's silver hair?

http://i.imgur.com/4vGTn.jpg

it's funny..for me..it doesnt suit him..this is for the HIGH HIGH MV..anyhow..he n gd looked hot and just like pimps yo! ehehe..cant wait to watch the full mv! gonna be a blast! for more pics from the high high mv party, u can search it at bigbangupdates blog..they got everything there..hehehe

somehow i think, top looks like a villain..a very handsome villain..which suit his badass face..hehehe

fin..

p/s : wishing that i was one of those who got invited..eheheh

Obsession

(Check check ...this happened for real ...baby bash..yo.. frankie j.... obession)

Its early in the morning

And my heart is really lonely

Just thinkin bout you baby

Got me twisted in the head

And I dont know how to take it

But its driving me so crazy

I dont know if its right

I'm tossin turning in my bed

Its 5 oclock in the morning

And I still cant sleep

Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me

Weak...

I'm feeling hopeless in my home

I dont know what to do but I think I'm in love

Baby...

[Chorus]

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)

Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)

Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Now I know you're not my lady I'm just tryin to make this right

I dont know what to do I'm going out of my mind

So baby if u let me could I getchu to say maybe we could ride together

We could do this all nite now I dont care if u got a man

Baby I wish you'd understand

Cuz I kno he cant love u right, quite like I can

Its 5 oclock in the morning

And I still cant sleep

Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me

Weak...

I'm feeling hopeless at home

I dont kno what to do but I think I'm in love

[Chorus]

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)

Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)

Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

I love the way u freaky like that

I love the way u freaky like that

I love the way u freaky like that

Its an obsession

[Baby Bash]

Hold up let me dream

Shorty got me feelin less supreme

Where my candy, where my cream

Got your boy feel less supreme

Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent

Loving everything your representing

Got alot of money, I love to spend it

And thats whats up and I dont care what people scream

You're my blessin when I'm stressin

My superfly beauty queen

I'm gonna keep it saucy

Cuz my money know how I do, we go rendez-vous, mi corazon belongs to you

[Chorus]

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)

Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong) what am I do wrong [echo]

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)

Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)

What am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong?) what am I do so wrong? [echo]

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)

Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Amor

artists : frankie j feat. baby bash

suddenly i got the mood to listen to rnb n hip hop tonight..this song was one of my fav..during high school..lol..maybe coz i had a crush on someone that time..yeah..hahaha well..still loving this song..hehehe frankie j's voice is so making me melt..lol

fin

p/s : singing so whole heartedly while thinking oneself has the same voice as frankie j..lol